Review: Wishing on Willows by Katie Ganshert

Wishing On Willows

From the Back of the Book:

Does a second chance at life and love always involve surrender?
 
A three-year old son, a struggling café, and fading memories are all Robin Price has left of her late husband. As the proud owner of Willow Tree Café in small town Peaks, Iowa,  she pours her heart into every muffin she bakes and espresso she pulls, thankful for the sense of purpose and community the work provides.

So when developer Ian McKay shows up in Peaks with plans to build condos where her café and a vital town ministry are located, she isn’t about to let go without a fight.

As stubborn as he is handsome, Ian won’t give up easily. His family’s business depends on his success in Peaks. But as Ian pushes to seal the deal, he wonders if he has met his match. Robin’s gracious spirit threatens to undo his resolve, especially when he discovers the beautiful widow harbors a grief that resonates with his own.

With polarized opinions forming all over town, business becomes unavoidably personal and Robin and Ian must decide whether to cling to the familiar or surrender their plans to the God of Second Chances.

From Me:

Katie Ganshert does it again. This second book about the folks in Peaks is as charming as her first, Wildflowers from Winter. Wildflowers from winterFrom the beginning, she had me hooked by the glimpse into Robin’s life with her beloved Micah. But Robin is a widow now, raising the child she and Micah prayed for and the operating the café they dreamed up together, on her own. When Ian McKay sweeps into town, he stirs up a little more than dust. He stirs up trouble for the whole town, inadvertently drawing a line that forces the residents to take one side or the other… for or against Robin and her Willow Tree café.

Katie paints a bittersweet story with her words, one of suffering great loss, of slow healing that’s sometimes even more painful than the wounds and losses themselves, and one of grace and second chances. Her characters resonate with us readers because they’re genuine, with genuine emotions, genuine issues, and genuine growth. One of my pet peeves is characters who overreact to situations, making a story feel contrived. Katie avoids that while keeping the tension high in the right places and by weaving in the underlying feeling of movement towards second chances going strong.

Like Robin’s piano-playing, Wishing on Willows is a living, breathing melody that lingers long after the last note fades away.

Lovely – looking forward to book three.

Disclaimer: Received this e-book from the publisher for the review purposes.

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Elderberry Croft: Part 5

May Enchantment

Elderberry Croft Home

Welcome to Elderberry Croft

A Serial Book Written in Twelve Monthly Episodes

The residents of The Coach House Trailer Park are just as run-down as the park itself. In fact, they’ve all come here to die. Then one day, on a crisp January breeze, Willow Goodhope sweeps into the neighborhood. She moves into the lonely little shack on the other side of the driveway, bringing her potted plants, her Elderberry gifts, and her outrageous laughter. The Coach House residents can’t resist her charm as she breathes new life into hardened hearts, but there’s something about Willow, a terrible sadness that hovers at the back of her enigmatic eyes, and it has everyone talking, wondering, worrying. Kathy overhears her sobbing in her kitchen. Doc catches her burning letters in her fire pit. Myra swears she drinks alone out on her patio in the middle of the night. Patti knows the beautiful girl is after her husband, and Eddie and Donny, forever-feuding brothers, are competing to see who can make her smile first, even though they’re both fairly sure she’d prefer her men with real jobs, real homes, and real teeth. What–or who–is haunting the mysterious Willow Goodhope of Elderberry Croft? Will her new “family” be able to rescue her before it’s too late?

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Part 1: January Breeze

Part 2: February Embers

Part 3: March Whispers

Part 4: April Shadows

Part 5: May Enchantment

Brothers

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Chapter 1

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The man had not been back.

He assured her of it repeatedly.

She was crying. She was trying not to, he could tell, but the tears leaked out of the corners of her eyes anyway. Well, shoot. What was he supposed to do now? Wait for her to get a hold of herself? Or just keep talking like he didn’t notice?

“Go on,” she urged, as though reading his mind.

“Well, he just walked on out of here and disappeared into the night. I’ve been watching for him since, and so has Doc, but we haven’t seen anything suspicious ‘round here for weeks now.” Eddie reached up with both hands, and roughly curled the bill of his Flying J baseball cap, settling it more firmly on his head. “Look, I didn’t tell you this to get you all nervous and worked up. I wasn’t even going to say anything, because people tend to start acting paranoid about every rustle in the bushes they hear outside their windows at night, but I figure you and the other girls back here ought to know, just so you keep your doors locked and have your antennas up.” He knew he sounded cranky, but she was making him nervous, making him jabber away like a little schoolgirl. If she’d got all freaked out and scared, the way Myra did, he’d have been better equipped, but Willow Goodhope’s teary-eyed stare made him squirm.

He took a deep breath to steady his nerves, and opened his mouth to speak, then he paused, catching a whiff of something familiar in the air, like woodshop and mineral oil. Naw, couldn’t be. There was nothing but flowers everywhere he turned. “So anyway, I still have to go talk to Kathy. You gonna be all right?”

“Thank you for letting me know, Eddie. Yes. I’ll be fine.” They stood at her front door, beneath the hand-painted sign that read Elderberry Croft. He shuffled his weight back and forth over his feet, not knowing what to do with his hands. He took a step backward, and bumped up against a potted plant.

“Dang it!” He reached down quickly to right the pot before it toppled over. Getting to Willow’s front door was like an obstacle course for a big man like himself, and he preferred to catch her when she was outside already. Today, though, after walking by her place three different times, he’d finally sucked it up, and knocked on her closed door. Nothing about this visit was easy, and he quickly made his way off the front stoop before he had any other mishaps.

“Eddie?”

He paused just past the steps, but when she didn’t continue, he wondered if he’d just imagined it. Well, he couldn’t stand there all day. “Did you need something else?”

“Did you see him? His face?” Her voice sounded tight, uncertain. “Do you know what he looks like?”

Eddie shook his head. “Nope. I only caught a glimpse of him from a distance. And it was at night. I could tell he wasn’t a big guy, seemed a little shorter than I am.” He took off his hat and scratched the top of his head. “But you might want to ask Shelly, over in Space Eight, about him. She noticed him first.” He returned the cap to his head, and glancing over at the little stream dividing the front of The Coach House Trailer Park from the back of the property, he paused, remembering something. “When he passed under the light on your bridge, I could see he had kinda longish hair. Dark. Not like Jesus long. Like it’s been a while since he’s seen a barber. Like me.” He shrugged. “But he didn’t turn around, so I didn’t see his face.”

Willow stood in her doorway, under the shadowy front porch, but he could see her nod, almost as though she’d expected to hear those words from him.

“Do you have an idea who it might be?” he prompted. “Is it someone you know?”

She just shook her head, and Eddie didn’t know what else to say, so he turned and walked away.

This was one part of his job he didn’t like, all this emotional hoopla. Most of the time, folks at The Coach House Trailer Park just kept to themselves. Except for when they paid their space rentals, he only really mingled with the ladies if they needed something fixed or had issues with the property, like falling branches, or stray animals. Some of the tenants got together on Myra’s front porch in the evenings, playing poker for cigarettes and lottery tickets, and he’d stop in if there wasn’t a game on, but he just didn’t have what it took to feel comfortable around people on a regular basis.

Oh, he didn’t mind sitting in his mom’s trailer over a meal of pot roast and potatoes, but then, she did all the talking, not expecting him to do more than grunt a few times in agreement with whatever she was yabbering on about. She really didn’t want his opinions, anyway. That’s what she had Donny for.

Donny was the thinker. Donny was the philosopher. Donny was the lady’s man. Donny was the mama’s boy. Donny, Donny, Donny.

Yeah, well, Donny couldn’t keep a job any longer than he could keep a girlfriend. Except for Sheena. For some reason, Sheena kept taking him back. Oh, she’d warn him. She’d threaten him within an inch of his life, but he always screwed up. And Sheena always kicked him out. Then he’d apologize, flash those girly eyes at her—no man should have eyes like Donny’s—and Sheena always took him back.

There was a time when Eddie could have cared less, mainly because he knew Donny for what he was; a lazy, good-for-nothing scoundrel. Because Eddie saw through his charm and good looks, he had no trouble resisting his kid brother when he asked for money, a job, beer, gas for his car, a place to stay. He didn’t know Sheena from the Easter bunny, so if the girl wanted to play games with Donny, who was Eddie to step in and spoil their fun?

Until the time Sheena came running to Eddie for advice and comfort, and Eddie discovered something about Donny he couldn’t say no to.

Donny’s girl.

Donny had never forgiven him, and Eddie couldn’t forgive Donny for being the one Sheena wanted. It made no difference to his heart that Sheena had always belonged to his brother, that Eddie was just the rebound guy. It didn’t matter that Sheena felt “alive and on fire” when she was with Donny. All that mattered to Eddie’s heart was the way she’d nestled against his side, and whispered that she’d never felt so safe and protected than she did when she was tucked under his wing.

A few weeks ago, Donny moved back in with Mom again. Eddie tried not to think about what his brother must have done to Sheena to make her kick him out this time. Part of him wanted to call her, to make sure she was okay, to be there for her; but he knew better.

“Mind your own Jim Beam, Eddie,” he muttered in a voice that sounded a lot like his father’s. “Stay out of the sty and you won’t smell like manure.” Except Eddie’s words weren’t slurred. And Jim Beam was just a figure of speech to him.

Eddie had dated a few times. Once seriously, in fact. But then his stomach started acting up and he’d been diagnosed with the big C in his colon. The cancer had been obliterated with drugs, radiation, and a surgery that left him with a bag grafted to his abdomen, just below his belt line.  He decided it was more than any woman should have to handle—the smell, the sight, the hassle, his potentially early death—and he broke it off with Leanne. Sadly, she’d seemed relieved when he did, confirming his decision. He’d lost a few pounds, then gained them all back again and more, but he’d kept his resolve to not saddle anyone else with his problems.

He certainly hadn’t told Donny. And unless Leanne had spilled her guts, not even Mom knew how sick he’d been. But then, Mom didn’t really want to know about stuff like that. She didn’t want to consider the fact that Eddie might die before she did. She didn’t want to admit that her precious baby boy, Donny, was a loser. Nor did she want to believe that when Dad left a few years ago, it wasn’t a round trip.

That man hadn’t been back, either.

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Chapter 2

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Files

Kathy was completely unconcerned about the stranger, but not in a way that made him feel any better. She’d seen the man, too, but hadn’t given him much thought; at least not enough to bother mentioning him to Eddie. She’d been working in her yard one night when he came by, and they’d greeted each other pleasantly.

“He didn’t act like he had anything to hide,” she said.

“In the middle of the night? You didn’t think that was a little strange? Didn’t bother asking what he was doing here, walking around in the dark?” Eddie couldn’t understand this woman any better than he could Willow Goodhope, but for very different reasons.

“I don’t keep track of the time, Eddie. You know that. It could have been ten o’clock in the morning, for all I know. I was up, why shouldn’t he be?” She hadn’t paid any more attention to him after he’d wished her a good evening. “I just assumed he was visiting someone back here and was taking a stroll around the neighborhood, or heading home. I saw nothing suspicious about him.”

“Well, do me a favor. The next time you see him, please call me. He doesn’t belong back here, and we don’t need any trouble.”

“Oh, I don’t—”

“Just do it, Kathy. Please. He has no business being back here. None. Got it?”

“Sure, sure. I just hope I don’t see him.” Her voice petulant, Kathy scooped up the cat that was tangling itself between her legs, and turned without another word, her dogs following on her heels.

“Women,” Eddie grumbled, as he hitched up his jeans, and headed back across the bridge to his own place. Today, having dealt with a few too many of them, and all their frustrating emotions, he was reminded again of why single worked just fine for him.

Sure, a warm body in his bed, a tender word to start the day, a feminine touch here and there in his trailer, none of that would be a problem. In fact, he’d be the first to admit he’d like those things, especially if it all came with someone who liked to make a good steak and egg burrito, and didn’t mind washing a few clothes. But the ups and downs of a woman’s mood, the unpredictability of their very nature; he just didn’t have it in him to take one on full time.

Mounting the three steps of his little stoop, he paused when he heard his name. Turning, he saw Myra scurrying across the driveway toward him. Now what?

“Have you heard anything about Shadowman?”

He reached for the dulled knob on his door and gave it a good tug. “Who?” It stuck at the top corner—he’d been meaning to shave it down for months—and it came open suddenly in his hand, nearly knocking him off the top step. “What in tarnation are you talking about, Myra?”

“Shadowman. The man in the shadows. That’s what we’re calling him.”

“Good King Midas, Myra. Are you serious? You named him? He’s just a guy, not some evil super villain.”

“Well, he’s obviously up to no good, sneaking around our homes in the dead of night. Have you called the police? I mean, this kind of thing could really affect my health, Eddie. My heart can’t take the stress, you know. My doctor says I could go at any time.”

Eddie took a deep breath, then let it out very slowly, squinting his eyes as he looked past Myra to the front door of her trailer. How he wished he could just put his hands on her scrawny little shoulders, turn her around, and send her marching right back across the drive. At least when she was standing on her own porch, hollering at him in her scratchy voice, he could pretend not to understand what she was saying.

“Look, Myra. Doc is keeping an eye out at that end of the park, and I’m—”

“Doc? You expect Doc to catch him? Once Doc takes his sleeping pill, you couldn’t wake him up with a baseball bat! Ai-yi-yi, Eddie. We’re all going to be killed in our sleep!”

“Myra. Myra!” He said her name twice before she clamped her mouth shut and stopped waving her hands in the air. They stared at each other a few moments, a stand-off of sorts, then Myra harrumphed, spun on her heels, and went home. Eddie leaned forward and banged his forehead on the edge of his door.

Closing it behind him in relief, he thought about the varied reactions he’d been getting over this stranger in the park. In a way, he understood Myra and her over-the-top fear. He didn’t like the uncertainty the guy stirred up around here, either. In a way, he understood Shelly’s calm concern, the woman who’d first reported seeing the man. He even understood Kathy’s reservations to get anyone in trouble. Eddie didn’t need the hassle that came with involving the police in the affairs of the park. This was his little kingdom, and he preferred to keep things to a dull roar around here. But why did the news make Willow Goodhope cry? It seemed such a strange reaction to him. Was it someone she knew, after all? And if so, why would she deny it?

Inside his circa 1970s trailer, he dropped into the faux leather office chair at his Formica-topped desk. He’d had the chair for so long, it had conformed to the shape of his backside, but it was comfortable, and no one else sat in it, so there was no one to complain about it. Besides, it had a high backrest, fully padded, and for someone as tall as he was, being able to rest your head on the back of a chair was a luxury. Sliding out the file drawer where he kept all the folders on tenants, he pulled Willow’s out and opened it on his desk. He wasn’t sure what he was looking for, and he felt a little shady digging around in her business, but the more he thought about her reaction today, the more he thought he might be missing something.

Her next of kin contact was her father, Jackson Goodhope, who lived in a retirement facility the next town over. She had references from past jobs; a receptionist in a doctor’s office, a coffee barista, even a volunteer at a wildlife preserve where she’d been a field guide for student days. Everything panned out. Nothing suspicious.

So what was she crying about? Was it just one of those irrational fears women have, like being afraid of lizards or crickets? Eddie closed the file and leaned back in his chair, bringing his arms up and linking his fingers together behind his head. His eyes lingered on the tab of the file that read “Space 12” on it, scribbled in blue ink, his penmanship barely legible. Why did women have to be so hard to figure out; this one in particular?

A tentative knock on his door startled him, and he sat forward quickly, his right knee banging into the open file drawer. “Dang it!”

Hobbling to the door, he thrust a shoulder into it, expecting it to stick as usual.

It didn’t.

Eddie stumbled forward, the door swinging wide, bumping hard against the person on the other side. He watched in horror as Willow Goodhope’s arms flailed in circles, grasping for anything to keep from going backward down the three steps. Lunging for her, he grabbed the flap of her jacket just in time, and yanked her upright, bringing her hard up against him.

She, in turn, clutched at his shoulders, holding on to him like he’d just hauled her out of a nest of baby rattlers.

Eddie released his grip on her clothing and stood, stiff as a barn door, both hands spread out at his sides, desperate to shut out the immediate awareness of the woman leaning on him, and the fresh-cut wood smell of her hair rising up to taunt his senses.

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Chapter 3

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One room cottage

Women like Willow Goodhope didn’t lean on men like Eddie Banks. They hung on the arms of pretty boys like Brad Pitt. Women like Willow didn’t even go for guys like Donny; they knew better.

She stepped away suddenly, as if realizing his thoughts, clenching and unclenching her fists in front of her.

Eddie glared over her head at Myra’s front window where the curtain moved unnaturally, and muttered, “My fault. The door didn’t stick.”

When she didn’t respond, he looked down at her, and saw the confusion on her face. He tried to explain. “My door always sticks. I always have to shove on it. This time it didn’t stick.” What an idiot he must sound like to her. “I didn’t mean to launch you off the porch.”

She began to smile, then she covered her mouth with her hand. A moment later, a laugh burst out between her fingers, and Eddie took a step back, eyes widening. It wasn’t exactly a cackle, but the woman’s laugh sounded more like something that would come out of a truck driver, than a red-haired tree hugger.

“Oh Eddie,” she gasped, when she’d caught her breath enough to speak. She reached up and swept back the wild curls from her face; her hair had come loose from the clip holding it all at the back of her head. She straightened her jacket. “I’m just glad you caught me. I don’t fall well, believe me. I rarely get seriously hurt, but I bruise like there’s no tomorrow, and with skin this pale, every color of the rainbow makes an appearance.”

Eddie eyed her, not sure what to say. He felt compelled to say something, anything, but for the life of his mother, he couldn’t think of a blasted thing.

“Anyway, thank you,” she smiled, filling in for his lack of words. “Um, do you have a minute? Can I talk to you?”

“Sure.” He could answer a direct question. “Come on in.” He tipped his head toward the sofa that dwarfed his narrow living room.

“Oh. Okay.”

He sensed her hesitation, but not understanding it, he held his door open and waited for her to precede him inside. She entered, but stood just to one side of the entry, making him step around her. Her eyes darted around the room, and it finally occurred to him that she was not comfortable being inside and alone with him.

Of course not. He’d been inside her cottage a month after she moved in, fixing the leaky faucet in her kitchen, and nothing in his place could hold a candle to her antique furniture and fancy trinkets scattered strategically around the room. Somehow, she made the little shack at Space Twelve look like the  hideaway of some gypsy princess, the way she draped colorful fabric around the room and hung strings of lights everywhere. His brown room, with its brown furniture, and brown carpet, was foreign territory to someone like Willow Goodhope.

With the toe of his boot, he flipped up the corner of the rubber welcome mat, using it to prop the door open. That should ease her mind. “What can I do for you?”

She smiled gratefully, silently acknowledging his actions. “I need to talk to you about that man.”

“Okay.” He could tell she was struggling over what she wanted to say, but he made the decision not to care. If she was going to judge him based on his circumstances, then she was just more validation for his choices in the relationship department.

“I… I think I might know who he is. Was. Is.” She paused, and he said nothing, not willing to make this easier for her. She chewed on her bottom lip and gazed over her shoulder out the open door before continuing.

“I think it might be my husband. My ex-husband. Or something like that.”

If she’d said she thought the man was Santa Claus, he might have been less surprised. “What does that mean? Something like a husband? Are you married or not?”

And blast it all, there she was, tearing up again. Eddie scrubbed his jaw with the palm of his hand. “Okay, look. It doesn’t matter to me, not really. All that matters is this: Do you want him here?”

“N-n-no,” she stammered, her voice wavering.

“Then that makes him a trespasser. If I run into him again, I’ll let him know he’s not welcome on the property. If he comes back after that, I’ll call the cops. They can be here right quick; the station is just up the road, less than a mile.”

“Oh, I don’t think you’ll have to go that far, Eddie. If it’s my—him, he won’t want the police involved.” She crossed her arms like a shield in front of her, stilling the tremble in her hands by squeezing her upper arms. “I—I just thought you should know.”

An unexpected urge flooded over him, something uncomfortably familiar to what he felt when he thought of Sheena. Eddie turned away, scoffing at his momentary sentiment; as though Willow would ever look to a guy like him for anything but fixing her toilet. He straightened the folders on his desk, tucking hers beneath the others, hoping she hadn’t already seen it. Where were these ridiculous notions of protectiveness coming from?

“So, does that mean he’s not dangerous? Or that he’s so dangerous, he can’t afford to get the police involved?” His abrasive tone reflected his thoughts, and from the corner of his eyes, he saw her flinch at his questions.

“He’s not dangerous,” she murmured, her eyes downcast, one booted foot twisting nervously. “If it’s him, he wouldn’t want the police involved for my sake.”

Eddie cleared his throat. “You’re not making this any easier on me, Willow.” He leaned back against the edge of the desk, and pinned her with a dubious look. “What does that mean? Are you hiding from the police?”

“No!” Willow’s eyes shot up to meet his, and she waved her hands frantically between them. “Oh no, it’s not like that at all. He just knows I don’t like drama in my life, and he would feel terrible if the police showed up on my doorstep because of him.”

Eddie reached up to grab the bill of his cap before remembering he’d tossed it on the sofa when he came inside. He rubbed the back of his neck instead, his frown deepening. “Woman, you make no sense to me whatsoever. You stir up drama everywhere you go. The Davis’ haven’t stopped talking about that anniversary party you threw them. Kathy thinks you’re some kind of forest elf-girl. Joe introduced his wife to me last month, because you told him to man up. And now Shelly? She hasn’t set foot outside her house in years, at least not during the daylight hours, but yesterday,” he waved a hand toward his kitchen counter across the room. “She showed up with that basket of muffins, to thank me for looking out for all you ladies out back. She said you gave her the recipe.” He shook a thick finger at her. “You’re more excitement than this park has seen in all the years I’ve been working here, so don’t try to tell me you don’t like drama.”

“Oh.” Her voice was still small, but he thought he saw a flicker of pleasure on her face.

“Yeah. Oh.” He rolled his eyes good naturedly. “So, just give me the facts, okay? Do I need to be worried about this guy, if he even is your husband-ex-husband-or-something-like-it? Or do I just need to ask him nicely not to show his face around here anymore?”

Willow smiled openly now. “If it is my husband-ex-husband-or-something-like-it, asking him nicely will do just fine.”

What was wrong with him? Why on earth did that tiny glimpse of her smile make his chest tighten? Why did he want nothing more than to see another one, a bigger one, to hear that ridiculous laugh of hers again?

He started toward her, and she side-stepped, skittish as a wild animal in a cage. What was she so afraid of? His voice was brisk, but low. “Just getting the door for you.” He flattened the mat with his foot, pushed the door open a little wider, and stepped back to give her plenty of space.

She slipped out side and down the steps, turning around to face him on the last one. “Thank you, Eddie. Thank you for looking out for us girls.” She tucked a stray curl behind her ear and grinned. “Enjoy those muffins; they’re my favorite!”

Eddie just nodded as the girl scampered off, taking her sunshine smile with her. But the smell of fresh cut pine lingered in the air inside his trailer.

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Chapter 4

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Shadowman

Husband-ex-husband-or-something-like-it. Eddie couldn’t get his mind off her words. That night, even the Laker game didn’t hold his attention for very long. “Ridiculous,” he muttered, shaking his head. “Complete nonsense.” But what stuck in his craw was the way she’d said those words. Like she was scared. Or wary. Or a little lost.

For some inconceivable reason, it reminded him of when he learned about the golf ball sized tumor growing in his colon. Suddenly, at forty-one years old, he was reduced to a lost little boy, his self-reliance and confidence imploding into a mass of fear that writhed and whorled in the pit of his stomach. Every day became a battle between putting on a brave front and facing the world as though nothing was wrong, and climbing behind the wheel of his beat-up F150, and driving as fast and far away from the truth as he could.

But the residents of the Coach House needed him—they always did. And he always answered the phone, the door. Each new day kept showing up, whether he wanted it to or not, and with it came wasp nests in the laundry room and broken water heaters. When he finally worked up the courage to go under the knife, he told everyone he was taking a long-overdue vacation, and even his mother thought it was about time. She arranged for Donny to cover for him, and Eddie arranged for Doc to babysat Donny.

Doc knew about the bag attached to the hole in Eddie’s gut. Once Leanne left, he had to tell someone, just in case there were complications. But Doc also knew how to keep secrets, because Doc had a few secrets of his own, and if there ever was anyone Eddie wanted at his back, it was the seasoned soldier. And Eddie was big enough that he wasn’t afraid of the old coot when he went into one of his post-traumatic-stress episodes. Besides, if it came right down to it, he’d rather meet death at the business end of a loaded .45, than at the end of a long, painful journey, while being eaten up from the inside out.

That was four years ago, and Eddie was no longer afraid of death. He was still a little leery about really living, but he’d grown accustomed to his lot in life, and comfortable in his lowered expectations.

Then came Willow Goodhope. People all over the park were talking about her. Myra insisted she was an angel sent from Heaven to help prepare the way for those who’d be leaving earth soon. Al, in his trailer near the park entrance, confided to Eddie last month that he now kept his blinds open in the afternoon. “That little strawberry checks her mail every day at three-thirty, sharp. I set all my clocks by her,” he explained, tapping the watch on his wrist, and blushing a little redder under his naturally ruddy complexion. Doc just grinned every time her name came up, but he never said a word.

Donny, thank God, had yet to meet her, but now that he was living with Mom again, he would find a reason to do so, Eddie was sure of it. He clenched his teeth at the notion of his kid brother flashing his girly eyes at her. Surely, Willow was smarter than that. Surely, she was smarter.

But what if she wasn’t? What if, while cut loose from Sheena, Donny figured out how to work his way under Willow’s skin? What if Donny learned the secret to making her smile, or even laugh, before Eddie did?

What if—No! Eddie surged up off the sofa and stomped into the kitchen, jerking open the door of his brown refrigerator. The shelves were nearly empty. They were always nearly empty. He opened the cupboard door to where he kept his packaged foods and canned goods. Not much to choose from there, either.

The basket from Shelly Little still sat at the end of the counter, and he crossed over to it, pulling out the last of the six muffins she’d given him, the one he’d been saving for breakfast tomorrow. He would call Mom in the morning and see if she’d scramble some eggs for him.

Three bites in, the phone rang, startling him, so that he dropped the muffin on the floor. Cursing mildly, he scooped it up, brushed it off, and set it back in the basket before reaching for the handset on his desk.

“Eddie here.” He sighed, preparing himself mentally for whatever emergency awaited him on the other end of the line. It was too late for social calls.

“This is Shelly Little in Space Eight. I’m sorry to bother you so late.” Eddie straightened immediately, the hairs on the back of his neck prickling his skin. This was the second phone call he’d received from the woman in so many weeks, and he knew, before she said anything else, exactly why she was calling.

“He’s back, Eddie. He just walked by my place.” She sounded calm and steady, just as she had the last time she reported the stranger, her voice somehow soothing to his frazzled nerves.

“I’ll be right there.” He almost hung up, but then brought the phone back to his mouth. “Thanks for calling me, Shelly.”

“Of course.” Then the phone hummed in his ear, and he punched the end button with his thumb, tossing it onto the sofa as he passed by. He shoved his socked feet inside his work boots, grabbed the industrial-size Maglite off the coffee table, and thrust his shoulder into the door. Ironically, it stuck fast, and he had to push much harder than usual.

Eddie made his way over the bridge, the moon bright enough that he didn’t need any extra light. He paused when he reached the walkway leading to Shelly’s front porch, but her house was shrouded in darkness, so he kept going. Apparently, she felt confident that he could handle the task at hand, and it bolstered him a little.

Just around the bend, he spotted the man walking slowly, almost carelessly, his feet scuffling the gravel with each step. His hands were in the pockets of his pants, and he wore a flannel shirt, the ends flapping a little in the faint breeze sweeping down from the bank of hills behind the park. He clearly wasn’t going for stealth.

“Hey.” Eddie spoke quietly, knowing his voice would carry and be easily heard. Sure enough, the guy turned to look over his shoulder, then stopped altogether, and waited for Eddie to catch up to him.

They stood a few feet apart, just past Joe’s driveway. “What’s up?” Eddie wasn’t interested in playing guessing games with the stranger, but his nonchalance left Eddie feeling uncertain about how best to address the situation.

In the moonlight, the man’s face looked rather gaunt, the shadows making his features bold, and a little fierce. He kept his hands in his pockets, and nodded a greeting. “Hey.”

“Can I help you? Are you here visiting someone?”

“No. Just taking a walk.”

It wasn’t the answer Eddie was looking for. He crossed his arms, filling his lungs with air, making himself appear even bigger than he already was. He knew how to do intimidating. “This is private property. If you’re not here as a guest of one of the residents, you’re trespassing, and I’m going to have to ask you to leave.”

Just then, a light blinked on in Willow’s cottage, and the stranger turned toward it. Eddie scowled at the raw hunger he saw etched in the man’s features. He flipped the switch on his flashlight and pointed it directly in the stranger’s face. “What’s your name?” There was no way he was going to let this creep leave now.

He turned and looked straight at Eddie, that emptied-out look still there, in spite of the bright light making him squint. “Christian Goodhope. Who are you?”

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Chapter 5

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Running through the forest

The husband-ex-husband-or-something-like-it.

“I’m Ed Banks. And you’re trespassing.” What the fool kind of name was Christian Goodhope? Sounded like an overgrown choir boy.

“Trespassing? Come on, man. I’m staying on the road. Not bothering anyone.” Christian withdrew his hands from his pockets and Eddie narrowed his eyes in preparation for the stranger’s next move. “I’m just taking a walk.”

“This is a private drive. You’re trespassing.” Eddie said it again, while scrutinizing the guy’s features, memorizing them, making sure he’d remember them if the need arose.

Christian turned away from the blinding beam of the flashlight, squeezed his eyes shut for a few moments, then stared openly at the cottage at the end of the drive. “That’s my wife in there.”

Eddie flinched. He couldn’t help it. He was expecting the guy to claim as much, but he wasn’t prepared for the tangible anguish in his voice. It was like the harsh rasp of metal on metal, brake pads worn down to nothing, jerking, and catching, and screeching all at the same time.

“That’s my wife, man.” When Eddie lowered the flashlight, Christian’s gaze swiveled back to look boldly up at the taller man, and said it a third time. “That’s my wife.”

“Not according to her.” Enough. Eddie wasn’t interested in this guy’s side of the story. Willow had made it very clear that she didn’t want him around, and Eddie intended to honor her wishes and send the guy packing. But not until after he spelled out a few things to this fellow. “That woman is none of your concern, Mr. Goodhope, not while she’s under my care, but I need you to understand something.” He paused for effect, then brought a fist slowly up between them, and pointed at his own chest. “I am your concern. I run this park, and you’re not welcome here.” With his other hand, he waved the heavy flashlight back the way they’d come. “Let’s go.”

“Wait. Please.” Christian lifted a hand and pointed in the direction of Willow’s place. “I’m not bothering her. I’m just checking on her. Making sure she’s okay.” His voice caught, and he cleared his throat, hard. “I just need to know that she’s okay.”

“She’s okay. She’s more than okay. She’s doing great, as you can see for yourself.” The plants on the patio were in full bloom, the vines decorating the front of the cottage like lace in the moonlight. The place, glowing from the inside, looked utterly enchanted. “We’re taking good care of her. Let’s go.”

Christian rocked back on his heels and laced his fingers together on top of his head. It almost looked to Eddie like he was trying to hold his skull together, like he might blow at any minute; not in anger, but in frustration, in pain. “Please,” he whispered, his voice breaking into a ragged sound.

Eddie sighed, his own frustration turning a little toward sympathy. “She told me she doesn’t want you here. You need to leave.”

Christian hands came forward, and he lunged toward Eddie, reaching out to grab at his shirt front. Eddie deflected his grip with the flashlight, knocking both arms away with a sweeping blow. “Whoa!” he growled. “Don’t touch me.” He was angry all over again; he’d been caught by surprise, and he didn’t like being surprised like this. Not in the dark, in the middle of the night, by a desperate man.

But Christian didn’t seem to notice Eddie’s anger, and even though he let his hands fall to his sides, he leaned forward, his eyes large and bright in the glow cast by the moon overhead. “She talked to you about me? What did she say?”

“Hey! Get it together.” The guy was losing it. “She didn’t talk about you. She only said she didn’t want you here. She asked me to escort you off the property if you showed up here again.”

The younger man’s shoulders dropped, his gaze fell; everything about him seemed to deflate before Eddie’s eyes. Finally, he lifted his head and peered intently at Willow’s place again, until Eddie prodded him with a clipped command. “Come on. Time to move along.”

Together, they strode in silence past Shelly’s place, across the bridge, alongside Eddie’s trailer, then out toward the street. Eddie waited at the entrance of the drive while Christian walked the few hundred feet to the Dodge Ram parked on the side of the road, and got in. He stayed his post until the truck disappeared into the night, then turned and headed back home, his shoulders drooping under the weight of what had just taken place.

How in tarnation did he handle this? Should he tell Willow about his conversation with the man who claimed to be her husband? Keep it to himself? What if the guy was stupid—or desperate—enough to come back?

“I don’t need this,” Eddie muttered, glancing heavenward. Not that he was talking to God. He didn’t talk to God, because God didn’t talk to him. He’d tried, back when he’d first been diagnosed, but when he didn’t get any answers, Eddie came to the conclusion that saving his sorry backside was the best he was going to get out of the Big Man upstairs. That was fine by him. Eddie figured he hadn’t done much of anything for God during the forty-plus years he’d been alive, so why should God do anything for Eddie?

Back on his sofa, he flipped on the television again, hoping to shut his head down for the night, but there was nothing on this late, at least nothing he wanted to see. He might as well go to bed; he’d deal with the Goodhope situation in the morning.

But his sleep was restless, and he dreamed about Willow, running through the trees in the dark, barefoot, her wild hair flying out behind her, her features haunted by whatever pursued her. Moving covertly through the shadows, ever so slowly, but still keeping up with the terrified girl, was a man, or a monster, he couldn’t quite tell. Eddie kept trying to call out to Willow, to tell her to run to him, that he’d protect her, but every time he opened his mouth, only a raspy whisper came out, not even loud enough to be heard above the rustle of the wind in the branches overhead. Frustrated, he began to run. Maybe he could catch up with her before the Shadowman did. So close, he reached out and grabbed at the flapping material of her coat, and she turned, her hair whipping him in the face, blinding him for just a moment. When he opened his eyes, it was no longer Willow’s lapel he was holding, but his father’s, a hollowed-out look in his teary eyes, an empty bottle in his hands.

Eddie woke with a start, his eyes popping open, his heart pounding like a bass drum in his chest. The morning had already made an appearance, and in the early light, he gazed at the pocked foam ceiling above him while he waited for his pulse to slow.

Sitting up on the edge of his bed, he propped his elbows on his knees and cupped his forehead in the palms of his two hands. It was shaping up to be a long day.

By the time he made it over to his mom’s trailer for breakfast, Donny was awake and in rare form. “I’m heading over to talk to Sheena,” he said in response to Eddie’s question. “And if she won’t lighten up, I’m done with her.”

“Oh Donny, you be gentle with that girl. She’s like a daughter to me, you know.” Edith carried an iron skillet from the stove top over to the table and set it down on a trivet beside Eddie’s plate. “There you go. Eat up.” She turned back to her younger son, who was combing his hair in front of the mirror hanging on the wall next to the front door. “You look very handsome, Donny. She won’t be able to resist you.”

Donny winked at his mother. “That’s the plan.” Eddie rolled his eyes, but said nothing. At least if he was going back to Sheena, Willow would be safe for a while.

“So Eddie. Tell me about the new girl in Space Twelve. I hear she’s a hot piece of—”

“Shut it!” Eddie ground the words out, much louder than he’d planned. “Stay away from her, Donny. She’s off limits.”

“Oh-ho-ho!” Donny crossed the room and leaned against the counter, grabbing a freshly-washed mug from the dish drainer and filling it with coffee. “Off limits? What does that mean? Are you staking your claim, Big Brother?”

“Boys, stop it.” Edith reached into the refrigerator for a carton of half-and-half, and handed it to Donny. “The sugar’s on the counter behind you, honey.” Turning to Eddie, who suddenly wasn’t so hungry, she chastised him. “Your brother’s just curious, Eddie. We all are. So tell us what you know about her. What’s her name again?”

Eddie sighed and closed his eyes, trying to remember why he’d thought coming here today, in his sleep-deprived state, was a good idea. “Mrs. Goodhope. She’s married. Stay away from her.”

“What? She’s married?” Edith leaned against the counter beside Donny, sipping on her own cup of coffee. “So why is she living here alone? Don’t try to tell me she’s got a man over there. We all know she’s on her own.”

Donny wore a mocking grin, reminding Eddie of the Cheshire cat from Wonderland. “I kinda like married women. No commitment required.”

“Donny!” Edith smacked his arm with the back of her hand. “Stop joking like that.”

Eddie knew better; Donny was serious. “Stay away from her, Donny.” He said it again, his voice low, as he shoved a huge bite of egg in his mouth and chewed, wanting nothing more than to punch his kid brother in the teeth.

“Maybe you should take your own advice, Eddie-boy. Sounds like you might be scoping things out for yourself.” Donny shoved off from the counter, gulped the rest of the creamy, sweet drink he’d made, and left the mug unrinsed in the sink. “I think I may just need to pay Mrs. Goodhope a visit. Warn her about how you get a kick out of preying on other men’s women.”

Eddie was on his feet, his fists up, before he really thought about what he was doing. “Stay away from her,” her growled, closing the distance between him and his brother in three steps.

“Eddie! Stop!” Edith shrieked, throwing herself in front of Donny, who smirked at him over the top his mother’s head. Eddie turned and stormed out of the trailer.

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Chapter 6

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Wheelbarrow

What a fool he was, stirring Donny’s curiosity like that. Why hadn’t he just kept his mouth shut and let him run off to win Sheena back? Now, not only did he have to deal with the creepy Shadowman, but he had his kid brother to worry about, too.

And when had he started calling Willow’s husband-ex-husband-or-something-like-it by his evil villain name, Shadowman? Eddie threw his cap on the sofa and clomped into the kitchen, his empty stomach mocking him.

“And I don’t prey on women, taken or otherwise,” he muttered. But the thought, like Willow’s words the day before, stuck in his craw, too. He’d known Leanne maybe a year before they started seeing each other, and she’d been in a serious relationship with a guy named Craig when they met. Before long, she was stopping by his place to hang out, talking about how sweet he was, how calm and gentlemanly, what a big guy he was. My gentle giant, she called him. He and Donny were opposites in every way, including the looks department. Eddie was built like a bear, solid, barrel-chested, and thick-limbed, while Donny pranced around like a gymnast, flashing his baby blues at anything in skirts. But Eddie had to admit that it did something for his ego when women drifted his way, especially when they drifted away from the likes of Donny, like Sheena had. In fact, Leanne had done the same thing, having left her man just weeks before Eddie asked her out, offering to comfort her in his beefy embrace. She’d never really been his, not in the way a man and woman should belong together. He’d been her strong tower, her place of refuge, but once the storm of her broken heart had passed, she was ready to move on.

And now here he was, prepared to step in and protect Willow Goodhope from the man claiming to be her husband, a man who obviously still cared for her, and from Donny, should the need arise.

He pulled out one of the two chairs at his dinette set and dropped heavily into it. What a fool. What a fool he was.

“So why?” He spoke the words aloud. “Why do I fall for unavailable women?” He wasn’t going to admit to intentionally stealing them. He never set out to do so, anyway.

All day long, the question plagued him, and until he could get it straight in his head, he didn’t dare go near Willow Goodhope. The smile, the tears, the sheer proximity of that girl would do him in today, in his weakened condition.

He attacked an ancient eucalyptus tree at the back of the property, one that had blown over in the January winds. He’d been meaning to take a chainsaw to it for some time now, having waited long enough for some of the oily liquid in its branches to dry up. It was the perfect outlet for his frustrations, and by the time he’d finished clearing the area, he had a pile of chopped and neatly stacked eucalyptus logs he could sell for firewood and make a mint off of, and a few revelations about himself he’d come to grips with.

Filling an old metal wheelbarrow with some of the smaller, more manageable logs, he rolled it across the drive and down the way toward Willow’s place. She was just returning from the mailbox with a stack of letters in her hands, and her face lit up at the site of him wheeling up at the edge of her patio. He imagined Al strategically positioned on his couch so he could keep the line of mailboxes in view, and held back a chuckle.

“Hi, Eddie! Whatcha got there?”

He nodded in greeting, then tipped his head toward the logs. “I’ve been clearing a fallen tree and thought you might want some of the logs for your fire pit. This stuff burns hot, but it smells good, if you like eucalyptus. You’ll just need to let it season until the fall, otherwise it’ll smoke you out.”

“How thoughtful of you!” She came right up to him, picked up one of the logs, and brought it to her nose. “I do love the smell of this stuff, Eddie. Thank you.” She smiled up at him, and over the top of the pungent odor of the sap on his hands, he could smell something else, that lingering woodsy scent that seemed to drift around Willow.

“Where do you want me to put it?” His tone was suddenly gruff, but she didn’t seem to notice.

She showed him where she already had a pile of fruitwood stacked at the back of the patio, but when she tried to help him, he shooed her off. “I got this.” She stepped back, and watched him work, chewing on her bottom lip. Eddie berated himself for noticing—he found himself taking note of her funny little habits and quirks. “So, I need to talk to you. About your….”

“The Shadowman?” she offered, when his words faded away. “I hear he’s been named.”

“Yes.” In fact, it was easier to think of him that way than it was to think of him as married–or something like it–to Willow. “He showed up here again last night.”

“Oh, dear. Oh no.” Willow crossed to one of the plastic chairs in front of the fire pit and dropped into it. The gurgling of the little stream that ran alongside her patio drowned out her quiet words, but Eddie had no trouble understanding the look on her face.

He finished stacking the wood, then indicated another chair nearby. “Mind if I sit?”

“No, please. Sit.”

“He said he was your husband. Actually, he said you were his wife.” He took a deep breath and held it, waiting for her to deny it. When she didn’t, he let it out in a long slow huff, and continued. “He said he just needed to know that you were okay. I assured him you were, and sent him on his way. He knows he’s not welcome here anymore.” He tried to keep his words gentle, but he had to speak a little loudly to be heard above the sound of the water, and he wasn’t sure how his tone would come off.

Eddie turned to look down the driveway to where he’d confronted Christian Goodhope the night before. Movement at Kathy’s window caught his eye, and he thought he saw the silhouettes of two people. Myra must be visiting Kathy; he could just imagine what kind of gossip was going on behind those curtains. When he looked back at Willow, her eyes glistened, but stayed dry, her hands still and laid flat over the letters stacked on her knees.

“Thank you, Eddie. I’m sure he’ll stay away now. I hope you’re not… not worried about me being here.” Her eyes scanned the little house and patio around them, finally landing on the elderberry tree growing all crooked and lush beside the stream, clusters of tiny white flowers covering its branches. “I don’t want to leave here. Not yet.”

Eddie shook his head. “Nah. You’re fine. I’m not worried.” He waited, hoping she’d expound a little on her relationship with Christian Goodhope, but she was chewing on her lip again. “Okay. I’ll be off. You let me know if there’s anything else I can do for you.” He stood up quickly, nearly knocking over his chair.

Willow stood too, not paying any attention to his clumsiness. “Thank you, Eddie. For everything. You, and the others here at The Coach House,” she spread her arms wide. “You’re exactly what I need right now. I can’t imagine where I’d be if I didn’t have Elderberry Croft and my wonderful neighbors.” Her words were simple, heartfelt, and Eddie felt his chest swell. It was good to be needed, especially for the right reasons.

He would be here for her. He would watch out for her. He would protect her. And he would do so without trying to win her heart. It was too late for him; he’d already fallen a little in love with her. But then, he didn’t think he was the only one. She seemed to work her magic on everyone she met, weaving her way into their hearts, and stirring up feelings and emotions they’d all thought dormant. Well, he could handle the little thrill he got every time she smiled at him, because he was going to do right by her.

He took a deep breath, the corner of his mouth curving up into a smile as he caught the smell of wood chips. “I’m glad to hear it,” he said, “and we’re glad to have you here, too.” Then he turned to go, taking his wheelbarrow with him. One day, maybe he’d learn the truth about Willow Goodhope and the Shadowman, but for now, he was content with leaving things the way they were.

And one day, maybe, just maybe, someone would happen into his life who was free to love and be loved by him. Someone who would smile up at him without the shadow of anyone else lingering in her eyes. Someone who wouldn’t balk at the life-saving device hanging from the hole in his abdomen, who wasn’t afraid of death, but would face it by his side when—no, if—the time came a little early for him.

He walked down the driveway toward the other end of the park. He waved at the two women standing on Kathy’s front porch, made his way past the Davis’ trailer, past Joe’s place, then paused in front of Shelly’s driveway. He should let her know that all was well with the world, thanks to her.

He looked down at his grubby hands, his sweat-stained shirt, a little too small, stretched over his slightly-protruding stomach. The knees of his jeans were smudged from kneeling in the dirt and debris, and he’d forgotten his belt, so his pants kept slipping down.

Maybe he’d go shower up first, then return the empty muffin basket to her, along with his thanks. Nodding in agreement with himself, he headed across the bridge for home, his shoulders back, chin up. It was shaping up to be a fine day, after all.

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The End of Part 5: May Enchantment

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I hope you enjoyed getting to know Eddie Banks, the manager of the Coach House Trailer Park, in Part 5: May Enchantment.

Do come again in June for Part 6: June Melody.

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Shadowman image and green wheelbarrow image courtesy of FreeDigitalPhotos.net

“Pastors’ Wives” iPad Mini Giveaway and Facebook Party with @LisaCullen! {5/23}


In association with Litfuse Publicity, I’m pleased to be a participating host in the virtual book tour event for Pastors’ Wives, by author Lisa Takeuchi Cullen. For more reviews, please visit the Pastors’ Wives Blog Tour!

Lisa Takeuchi Cullen
Lisa Takeuchi Cullen was a longtime staff writer for TIME magazine. She now develops TV pilots for production companies and recently sold her first pilot for “The Ordained” to CBS. Born in Japan, Cullen lives in New Jersey with family.

Find out more about Lisa at http://lisacullen.com.

About Pastors’ Wives:
 Pastors' WivesWhat’s it like when the man you married is already married to God? asks Pastors’ Wives, an often surprising yet always emotionally true first novel set in a world most of us know only from the outside.

Lisa Takeuchi Cullen’s début novel Pastors’ Wives follows three women whose lives converge and intertwine at a Southern evangelical mega church. Ruthie follows her Wall Street husband from New York to Magnolia, a fictional suburb of Atlanta, when he hears a calling to serve at a mega church called Greenleaf. Reeling from the death of her mother, Ruthie suffers a crisis of faith—in God, in her marriage, and in herself. Candace is Greenleaf’s “First Lady,” a force of nature who’ll stop at nothing to protect her church and her superstar husband. Ginger, married to Candace’s son, struggles to play dutiful wife and mother while burying her calamitous past. All their roads collide in one chaotic event that exposes their true selves. Inspired by Cullen’s reporting as a staff writer for Time magazine, Pastors’ Wives is a dramatic portrayal of the private lives of pastors’ wives, caught between the demands of faith, marriage, duty, and love.

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MY REVIEW:

Pastor’s Wives is a “behind the scenes” slice of life of the Greenleaf mega church, in which three prominent pastors wives are represented.

I’m going to begin with the not-so-good stuff. The book started a little rocky for me, for a few reasons. From the very beginning, I had a hard time “buying” the story of the first wife to whom we were introduced, Ruthie, who was uncertain about everything, from her religion, to her faith (two very different things), to her husband’s calling, and in particular, about her own place in their future together. That this prominent mega church would hire on a new pastor without clarifying the faith/belief of the wife, was hard for me to accept.  The reason this felt disingenuous is because I know from personal experience (having been a church administrative assistant for years, and been intimately involved in hiring pastors in both large and small protestant churches), that it’s standard practice to interview BOTH husband and wife when hiring for pastoral positions. This practice is specifically in response to the biblical view of marriage in Genesis 2:24 & Ephesians 5:31“For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh,” and therefore, are in accordance with each other in the calling to ministry. The absence of her faith was something they even discussed in their marriage, so her husband, Jerry, was under no misunderstanding that she might have been equally yoked with him in his beliefs. Again, this would have been one of the first criteria for offering Jerry the pastoral position. Honestly, I kept waiting for this to be addressed, but it was only Ruthie who seemed to be concerned that it might be a problem.

Candace’s and Ginger’s stories were much more believable, but because I’d been set up to doubt the integrity of the church (based on the way they conducted the hiring process with Jerry and Ruthie), it took me a while to really care for and believe in the other characters.

I also had concerns regarding some of the watered-down theology presented and promoted in this novel, but I am decidedly conservative when it comes to interfaith relationships and compromise. Take that however you will.

NOTE: There was some language and a few scenarios not typically “acceptable” by CBA standards, but there was only once or twice when it seemed to me to be unnecessarily gratuitous, one being that Ginger and Pastor Timothy slept together the first night they met, and called it “love,” with no acknowledgement of their actions being in any way less than honorable.

That being said, here comes the good stuff. The more I read, the more intrigued I became by Candace, in particular. She certainly grew on me in a way that surprised me, something I believe Lisa intended – like peeling back the layers of an onion, only to be surprised to find a multifaceted jewel at the core. I loved how each woman’s discovery of who GOD is, became a discovery of who they were as individuals.

Even though this novel is about a church and the women who “run” behind the scenes, it was not an in-your-face introduction to God, but a much more subtle unwrapping of how He is uniquely embraced by unique individuals.

Lisa is a lovely word artist; she has a way of painting her characters that makes them come to life between the pages of this story. Although written from all three women’s points of view, it wasn’t distracting when Lisa moved from one head to the other. I appreciated the way she developed the characters, and in turn, how their development changed the relationship between the three women.

Disclaimer: I received a complimentary copy of Pastors’ Wives from Litfuse for the purpose of this review.

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Laughing in the Face of Death

Breast Cancer

Photo courtesy of Paul Falardeau

It’s that time again, folks. My biannual reminder to all of you to be faithful in doing your breast self-exams!

Here’s a link to the Breast Cancer Society Website for more information on everything you should know if you have breasts. That means every human being, folks.

Why is this so important to me? My mother is a multiple-time breast cancer survivor and I lost a very dear friend, Liz Jetton, to this killer. Let me share a little moment in our relationship with you.

Laughing in the Face of Death

“I don’t want to do this again. I just don’t think I can.” Liz sat nestled into the corner of her sofa, arms crossed over a cushion she held against her lopsided chest. “Last time, it was like some bizarre adventure I knew I had to go through, but I was absolutely certain that I’d make it. This time, it’s different.” She shook her head, then muttered, “It wasn’t supposed to come back.”

Two weeks ago, Liz’s doctor informed her that the cancer was back; this time, her liver was full of the same tumors that had invaded her breast three years ago. Her liver was malfunctioning, turning her skin and eyes yellow from the bilirubin spilling into her system, and her whole body itched incessantly. Ten days into a new round of chemotherapy and radiation treatments, Liz was suffering the side effects of the poison coursing through her already weakened body. Weak and exhausted, she had a distressing tendency to pass out with little or no warning. To compound her discomfort, her hair began falling out this morning.

“I don’t want to do this again. I don’t want to lose my hair. I don’t want to be so tired that I can’t even get out of bed, and I don’t want to feel like death warmed over.”

My heart wrenched painfully as I watched my tough, edgy friend start to unravel. “I’ve got my poor husband worried, too. I never cry, Becky, you know that, and I think I’ve cried more in these past two weeks than in our whole married life together!”

I felt helpless. “I’m so sorry, Liz. I wish there was something I could do.”

Liz rested her head on the back of the sofa and closed her eyes for several moments. Finally she sat forward with a mischievous twinkle in her eye. “Actually, there is something.” She paused dramatically. “Will you pull my hair out?”

I laughed out loud. “Are you serious?”

“Yes! I am! Look!” She reached up, grabbed a fistful of her short blond curls, and tugged, none too gently. I covered my mouth in surprise at the clump of hair between her fingers. “See? It just comes right out. In fact, it falls right out. Last time, I decided to let it fall out naturally, but by the end of the second day, I was going crazy. I’d sit down to eat and find hair in every bite. I’d wake up in the middle of the night, my neck itching like crazy, with hair all over my pillow. Finally, I just buzzed if off, remember? I was so glad to get rid of it!” Grabbing another handful, she dropped it into a small wastebasket that was next to the couch and looked over at me again. “Are you going to help me, or not?”

I crossed the room and knelt on the floor in front of her. “Only if I get to buzz your head this time.”

I reached up and tentatively ran my fingers through her hair. It was soft, and thin, and to my dismay, it pulled loose between my fingers without any effort at all.

“It doesn’t hurt?”

“Nope.” she turned and smiled at me in an odd, bittersweet way that made my breath catch. Then she bent her head back over the basket as I methodically combed through her hair, pulling out handfuls at a time, until there were only a few stubborn patches left. “Okay. Let me see you, Liz.”

She looked like a little old man. There was a tuft of hair over each temple, another one above each ear, and I could see a few fine wisps at the back of her neck. I giggled. I tried not to, but then Liz did, too. In a few moments we were both laughing uncontrollably, releasing the pent-up, emotional burden of the last couple of weeks.

“Oh, Liz,” I said, when I finally caught my breath, “I feel like a teenager again, doing crazy things to your hair. Shall we make you into a punk rocker? Where are your permanent markers? I could tattoo your head…”

“Don’t you dare! It’s going to bad enough when the kids come home and see that I’m bald! And what would they say at church!” She giggled again, then became uncharacteristically serious, even for Liz. “Thank you. It’s nice to know that I can still laugh. I was beginning to wonder, you know.”

She went searching for the clippers, and when I heard laughter coming from the bathroom, I knew she’d seen her reflection. Her laugh was acceptance.

Moments later she returned, the buzzers in one hand and a large department store bag in the other. Plopping back down on the sofa again, she pulled several boxes out and set them on the cushion beside her. She opened one and lifted out a flattened blonde wig.

“I knew I should’ve gotten rid of these. Keeping them was just bad luck.” Liz smiled regretfully as she draped the hairpiece over a fist and began fluffing the curls with her other hand. She carefully propped it over the end of the armrest, squared her shoulders, and leaned her head out over the wastebasket again. “Okay. Buzz away.”

The frivolity of the moment had passed, and we were both serious once more. The noise of the electric clippers seemed obnoxious and loud, so I hurried to finish my task.

“All done,” I said, turning off the machine and brushing the last bits of hair from the nape of her neck. “Now you look like a real cancer patient.” I was half-joking, half-serious, but it was true. We had officially entered the next stage of the battle against her cancer. I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes, and I had to look away.

“Becky, you are not allowed to cry. Not right now. You have to be strong for me. You have to make me laugh. Don’t turn away from me. Don’t stop talking to me. Don’t give up on me.” Her quiet appeal spoke volumes, and I met her gaze once more. Her eyes, too, were bright, glistening with unshed tears, and I leaned over and hugged her hard.

“I love you, my friend, so don’t you dare think I’m giving up on you! You’re stuck with me,” I declared vehemently. “Besides, who said I was crying? I just got one or your hairs in my eye, that’s all.”

“A hair, huh?” Liz patted my cheek, then took a deep breath. “Well, I for one am glad that’s dealt with. How about some lunch?” As we bowed our heads—mine with my long, black mane, hers pale and vulnerable without its covering—over sandwiches, we thanked the Lord for His provision, and for the gift of friendship, of shared hope, of faith and love. We thanked Him for His promise to walk with us through the good times and the hard times.

Laughing in the Face of Death

Liz’s body succumbed to cancer ten years ago last March. She left behind her beloved husband and young son, and a legacy of courage and laughter, even in the face of death… because Liz knew that death was more than just another adventure. Death was the door to a wholly healed life with Christ. I miss her still, but when I think of her, I cherish memories like these; bittersweet moments when she wouldn’t let me turn away from what was coming, when she helped me to embrace her fully, by laughing in the face of death with her.

Today’s post is also a prayer for those of you in my life who are hurting: “…rejoicing in hope, persevering in tribulation, devoted to prayer…” Romans 12:12

Prayer: Patience in Action

 

Prayer of Jochabed

Have you been given a promise by the Lord, only to have it taken from you? Are you begging God for the life of a loved one; a husband, a child, a friend? Are you waiting, and waiting, and waiting some more, for answers that never seem to come? Your most powerful weapon is prayer. Use it. Don’t give up. And be grateful for the answers that He does give you. Keep your eyes and ears open so that you won’t miss the works of His hands, the sound of His voice. Then wait on the Lord. He will give you enough for one more day, one more step, one more breath. This He has promised.

May I pray this prayer from Hebrews 12:11-13 for you?

Lord Jesus, we know that all discipline for the moment seems not to be joyful, but sorrowful; yet to those who have been trained by it, afterwards it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness. Therefore, strengthen the hands that are weak and the knees that are feeble, and make straight paths for your feet, so that the limb which is lame may not be put out of joint, but rather be healed.

These things we ask in YOUR NAME, Jesus. Amen

Build My Platform on… LOVE?

Today, I’m over at Splickety Magazine, talking about building a platform.

As  a writer, I’m constantly working on my “platform” – my public appearance, my saleability, my ability to influence others to want to be in my “tribe.”

But God often directs us in a different way….

Come visit me at Splickety, and check out what it means to me to “LOVE LIKE THAT.”

Have a blessed WEEKEND!

In Respectful Silence…

I can’t seem to find any words of my own… and maybe that’s best.

“Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans.” Romans 8:26 (The Message)

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Elderberry Croft: Five Fabulous Reviews!

Elderberry Croft: Volume 1

From Barnes and Noble:

Wonderful story! I started and finished this book today and I’m in love with a new series! I love finding a book that tells a great story and this story pulled me in from the very beginning! Now I’ll try to patiently wait for volume 2.

From Amazon:

Elderberry Croft is the sort of book that leaves you hanging on each word. The characters are so well-developed, you feel like you know them. And the enigmatic, yet constantly encouraging Willow Goodhope would make a great best friend! Looking forward to the upcoming volumes in this series, though I’ll hate to see it end.

From Smashwords:

I purchased this book during Smashwords’ Read an Ebook Week and I am glad I did. Although disappointed at the end, I thoroughly enjoyed reading this. I found the story itself captivating and I really do want to know what happens next in the lives of these people – and, of course, what’s really bugging Willow Goodhope. And that’s where the disappointment comes in. Like most people, I want closure to this tale, but I am content to wait.

Ms. Doughty is a wonderful storyteller, if a bit overmuch on the religious side, and has woven a compelling story with quite believable characters with whom I can easily identify. We’ve all known people like these, which makes Doughty’s book all the more worth the read.

I recommend this book to anyone who likes an intelligently written and compelling book.

From HERE:

This person went out of their way to come here to Braveheart. This was the comment:

I took a brief look at your book and wanted to leave a comment, but *** has rules about that. Here’s what I wanted to say:

“Not the story for my tastes–but Doughty knows how to write, and I’d bet lovers of good romance novels would go for this one.”

Not a big-time review, I realize, but I wish you luck with the Elderberry.

I felt like this was an awesome review because the reader appreciated my writing, even though it didn’t suit their personal tastes.

And one more, just because…

In my opinion, one of the signs of a talented writer is the ability to make secondary characters come as fully to life as their main characters. Thank you for a wonderful, heart-gripping read!

Wow. THANK YOU!

Elderberry Croft

Do you know that Elderberry Croft: Volume One is FREE on Barnes and Noble? And on Smashwords, where you can download it to any e-book reader, including your Kindle, your iPad, and more? And it’s free here on Braveheart too!

Download a copy, or click on the Elderberry Croft tab above, and enjoy a relaxing read, instead of being “taxed” this weekend!

Elderberry Croft Home

The residents of The Coach House Trailer Park are just as run-down as the park itself. In fact, they’ve all come here to die. Then one day, on a crisp January breeze, Willow Goodhope sweeps into the neighborhood. She moves into the lonely little shack on the other side of the driveway, bringing her potted plants, her Elderberry gifts, and her outrageous laughter. The Coach House residents can’t resist her charm as she breathes new life into hardened hearts, but there’s something about Willow, a terrible sadness that hovers at the back of her enigmatic eyes, and it has everyone talking, wondering, worrying. Kathy overhears her sobbing in her kitchen. Doc catches her burning letters in her fire pit. Myra swears she drinks alone out on her patio in the middle of the night. Patti knows the beautiful girl is after her husband, and Eddie and Donny, forever-feuding brothers, are competing to see who can make her smile first, even though they’re both fairly sure she’d prefer her men with real jobs, real homes, and real teeth. What–or who–is haunting the mysterious Willow Goodhope of Elderberry Croft? Will her new “family” be able to rescue her before it’s too late?

Elderberry Croft: Part 4

April Shadows

Elderberry Croft Home

Welcome to Elderberry Croft

A Serial Book Written in Twelve Monthly Episodes

The residents of The Coach House Trailer Park are just as run-down as the park itself. In fact, they’ve all come here to die. Then one day, on a crisp January breeze, Willow Goodhope sweeps into the neighborhood. She moves into the lonely little shack on the other side of the driveway, bringing her potted plants, her Elderberry gifts, and her outrageous laughter. The Coach House residents can’t resist her charm as she breathes new life into hardened hearts, but there’s something about Willow, a terrible sadness that hovers at the back of her enigmatic eyes, and it has everyone talking, wondering, worrying. Kathy overhears her sobbing in her kitchen. Doc catches her burning letters in her fire pit. Myra swears she drinks alone out on her patio in the middle of the night. Patti knows the beautiful girl is after her husband, and Eddie and Donny, forever-feuding brothers, are competing to see who can make her smile first, even though they’re both fairly sure she’d prefer her men with real jobs, real homes, and real teeth. What–or who–is haunting the mysterious Willow Goodhope of Elderberry Croft? Will her new “family” be able to rescue her before it’s too late?

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Part 1: January Breeze

Part 2: February Embers

Part 3: March Whispers

Part 4: April Shadows

April Shadows

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“There he is again, Mr. Tibbles.” Shelly released the vertical blind slowly so it wouldn’t set the whole plastic curtain to moving. The cat in her arms was too busy playing dead to care what was going on outside in the dark. She carried him over to her desk chair, settled him into the spot she’d recently vacated, then returned to the small sliding door at her back entrance.

She’d opted for the wide clackity blinds because if the cats played with them, they didn’t shred, and they were easy to wipe clean. Digits, especially, loved to rub her arched back down the length of them, making the row of strips swish back and forth, batting at them to keep them moving. She knew it wasn’t likely that the man outside could hear the blinds rattling together, but the movement, even with all her lights off, might catch his eye if he happened to look her way.

Mr. Tibbles wasn’t happy about losing the warmth of her body. He leapt off the chair, and wandered off in search of a bite to eat or a catnip mouse to bat around.

She’d first noticed the man a few weeks ago. Although it wasn’t common to see strangers in The Coach House Trailer Park, she rarely paid attention to the few that did come through. People were allowed to have guests, after all. But this one never seemed to visit anyone, at least not that she could tell. He always slipped in on foot, walking slowly, almost furtively, it seemed, and usually well after dark.

The gravel drive that looped through the park was essentially a giant horseshoe back here. After crossing the bridge over the little stream that divided the property front to back, the drive passed by her place where it sat at the west end of the park, then turned left and ran alongside spaces 9, 10, and 11, before turning left again and crossing back over the second bridge at the other end of the property. Space 12, the new girl’s place, was just opposite Space 11, at the farthest east corner, just beyond the laundry shed.

He always came from Shelly’s end of the park, walking past her trailer, his feet crunching softly on the gravel. Didn’t he know that the sound of footsteps on the drive in the middle of the night echoed loudly off the bank of hills behind the property? Back here there was very little noise from the busy street out front, and once the sun set, things got pretty quiet. Next door, Joe’s light usually went out about 9, the trailer on the other side of him, around the same time. Kathy in Space 11 kept a wacky schedule, but from what she could tell, it wasn’t for the sake of entertaining. If there was activity at Space 11, it was just Kathy rearranging her heart-shaped rocks in her heart-shaped yard.

That woman must have hundreds of those rocks. Because Shelly only did her laundry once a month, and then, only at night, she rarely passed by Kathy’s house. But every once in a while, the stocky, energetic woman would be out in her yard, the floodlight on, carting piles of rocks around in an old metal wheelbarrow.

At first, Shelly thought she was a druggie. She’d transcribed enough patient charts to know the signs and symptoms. But Kathy, with wide-eyed clarity that defied the typical paranoia of drug abuse, claimed she simply suffered from bouts of insomnia. “A parting gift from my heavy-handed husband,” she declared. “He made sleeping one of the most terrifying activities of my night.” It was the only time they’d spoken, and it had been very uncomfortable for her. She’d felt the pressure to explain her own nocturnal lifestyle, but it wasn’t anyone’s business but her own. It didn’t help that all three of Kathy’s dogs were barking as though they’d like nothing better than to jump the fence and chew on her legs.

She didn’t understand why people liked dogs. They terrified her. They were deceptive and manipulative, with those big, sad eyes and soft, furry bodies. Then they’d open their mouths and the fangs, the drool…Shelly knew all about dog bites from the patient files, too.

She usually waited until all the lights were out along the drive before she turned on any of her own. Her cats liked to sleep during the day and play all night, so she adjusted to their schedule because she could. Her work didn’t require set hours, just a finished product, and she could transcribe in the middle of the night just as easily as she could in the light of day. She didn’t sleep well at night, anyway, so it seemed to like a good solution to her. Sure, it meant she spent the majority of her waking hours alone, but she had Mr. Tibbles and his harem, so she was never lonely. Besides, and the things she learned from the little voices that droned in her ears for hours at a time were really rather fascinating. Who needed television when her job provided her with so much entertainment and education?

She’d just turned on her computer and opened up the first file when she heard his faint footsteps. The Shadow Man, she had started calling him. She knew it had to be him; it was nearly midnight, and the whole place had been asleep for hours.

She lost sight of him around Kathy’s place, but she got the impression he never went much further. It wouldn’t make sense. Otherwise, he would have just come in from that end of the park, and he always came back out this way.

It must have something to do with that new girl in the cottage by the laundry shed. “It’s none of my business, Mr. Tibbles,” she murmured, more to herself than to the cat who was no longer in the room with her. She turned away from the door and the shadowy figure of the man; whatever he wanted with the cottage lady had nothing to do with her.

Shelly returned to her desk, wiggled the mouse to wake up her computer, and pulled the pile of folders toward her. She had several reports to transcribe before morning, and the rule was that she had to finish one before the kettle whistled, another while her chamomile tea brewed, then a third before she was allowed to eat her breakfast of three scoops of corn flakes and toast with peanut butter.

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Chapter 2

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April Shadows Digits

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By six o’clock the next morning, just as the first hint of light was beginning to seep into the sky, Shelly was finished. She checked and double-checked the printed copies of her transcription, making certain they were in alphabetical order by physician. She checked one, two, three times, that the flash drive was the correct one, tucked it into its case inside the plastic expandable folder with everything else. Then she stood, stretched, and sat back down. Pulling the flash drive from its case, she plugged it back into the computer, and checked it one, two, three more times. Satisfied, it went back in its case, back in the plastic folder. She went through the process one more time, making absolutely certain that there would be no mistakes, no error she’d have to explain, and no mishaps she’d have to recompense for.

Then she went through the process of strapping on the elastic band. It couldn’t be too tight—she didn’t want to leave even the faintest crease in the pile of papers—and it couldn’t be too loose or the zippered case with the flash drive might slip out. It must lay flat all the way around the case, not stretched too thinly in any one spot.

“Keep it even, Steven. Keep it straight, Nate. Keep it flat, Matt.” Three times she said this, three times she smoothed the band in place, three times she took it off again, testing its elasticity to make sure it wouldn’t snap. Three times she slipped it back in place.

“Three time’s a charm, right Mr. Tibbles?”

But it wasn’t Mr. Tibbles who was rubbing against her leg. “Hello, Molly Mia. How are you this morning?” Any other time, Shelly would have reached down and scooped up the long-haired cat into her arms, but today, she didn’t want the strands of white clinging to her clothes. The turtleneck she wore was one of her favorites, with a pattern of tiny blue flowers over a pale mint background, and her ankle-length, dark blue, denim skirt would need a quick rub with the lint-roller to rid it of Mr. Tibbles’ short black hairs already. Today was her delivery day, and she had to make sure she looked her best.

She still had nearly an hour to fill before the records department at the hospital was open, but she’d head out early as she did every week, and do her grocery shopping. It took her exactly thirty-three minutes to find everything on her shopping list, and it all fit into her three reusable bags. Then she’d sit in the parking lot at the hospital until 7 o’clock on the button, greet Mrs. Olson at information desk, and make her way, head down, to the section of offices where she exchanged her pile of reports for another flash drive. The whole ordeal took her less than fifteen minutes if everything was in order, but she gave herself thirty, just in case. She was always home by eight o’clock, with plenty of time to put away her groceries, feed the cats, and take a shower to wash away the germs she’d been exposed to in the hospital, before it was time for bed. By nine-thirty, she was in bed, by ten, asleep.

In the little kitchen, she pulled open the pantry to make sure she didn’t need to add anything to her shopping list. She looked sideways at her shelves, dreading the thought of having to rearrange her shopping trip around what she did or didn’t find there. “Be prepared, or be scared,” she murmured in a low voice. At least three of everything, just in case.

She sighed with relief when she didn’t see anything out of the ordinary and stepped back to close the door of the tiny room, doing a small jig to avoid the cat curling its body around her ankles. “Digits! Stop it, little girl! How am I supposed to walk with you under my feet?”

A few minutes later, she stood at her front door, taking one, two, three deep breaths to calm her nerves. She could do this. She did it every Friday. She’d be gone for two hours at the very most. “I’ll be right back, Mr. Tibbles. I promise.”

She made it to her car without panicking, and was just loading her things into the passenger side, when a voice behind her startled her, and she fought the urge to turn and run back inside, back to her sanctuary.

“Shelly? Good morning.”

She turned slowly, breathing deeply again, in and out three times, her fingers clenched into fists at her side. She didn’t speak; she didn’t know what to say. This was not part of her routine.

“Hi. I’m Willow. I live at the other end of the driveway.” Over a black turtleneck, she wore a funny little red sweater shrug thing that should have clashed with her coppery chestnut hair, but it didn’t. Her well-worn blue jeans and furry boots completed the ensemble, and Shelly blinked slowly—one, two, three times—knowing she could never get away with wearing something so intentionally unconventional. The woman toyed with a huge stone pendant on a long necklace, and she could hear the whir-whir as the silver eyelet rubbed back and forth over the links of the chain. “I was hoping to catch you this morning so we could meet.”

“How did you know?” Shelly slid into the space between the passenger seat and the open door, pulling it a little closer until the bottom bumped against her shin, sending a jolt of pain up her leg.

“How did I know what?” Willow’s confusion was obvious.

“How did you know I’d be out here today?” She didn’t mean to sound rude, but she couldn’t stop the tremor in her voice and the only way to mask it was with briskness.

“Oh!” Willow laughed, too loudly, like a low-class fishwife, and Shelly cringed. “I told Joe next door that I really wanted to meet you, but you never seem to be home. He explained to me that you sleep days and told me to leave you alone. So I bribed him for information with my elderberry apple pie.” She rubbed her palms together and winked. “I have my ways of making a man talk.”

Shelly blinked again, three times. “Well, I’m on my way to work. And Joe should mind his own business.”

“Please don’t be angry at Joe!” Willow stepped forward and put out a hand, resting it on the trunk of the car. “He didn’t gossip about you at all. He just said that if I was going to insist on being a nosy neighbor, this might be the only chance I have to catch you.”

“I guess Joe knows what he’s talking about, doesn’t he?” She couldn’t take the bite out of her words, even when she tried. “Um, it was nice to meet you, but I don’t want to be late, so if you’ll excuse me?” She was still crammed into the car door.

“Goodness! No, I don’t want to make you late.” Willow stepped back, bringing her arms across her stomach, like a loose hug. She thought it looked like she was comforting herself, and she felt guilt forming a band around her throat. “I won’t keep you any longer, but when will you be back? Would you like to come by for some coffee?” There was a forced brightness in Willow’s words; she was making such an effort.

“I’m usually back by nine.” She fudged a little, then held up a hand when Willow’s eyes widened with delight. “But I come home and go right to bed. I work nights.”

“Oh!” There was that chaotic laugh again. “Well, then I probably shouldn’t offer you coffee. Would you like to come over for decaf tea? I make a mean herbal tea. In fact, I have one that’s really good for sleep. It’s a nice chamomile and elderflower blend.”

This woman was determined. “I can’t. I’m going shopping, too, and I’ll have a car full of groceries to put away. And my cats will need to eat. I just can’t. I’m sorry.”

Willow shook her head, her red curls bouncing around on her shoulders like fat slinky toys. “Don’t apologize, Shelly. I’m the one who butted into your morning.” She chewed on her lip, and in a resolute voice, she said, “We’ll connect another time, okay?” Then she smiled kindly, stepped around the back of the car, and headed down the drive toward her own place, turning once to lift a hand in a wave.

Shelly breathed in deeply through her nose, catching a whiff of whatever fragrance Willow had been wearing that lingered behind her, and let out her breath in a whoosh, her whole body drooping as she sank into the passenger seat to recover. She hated being put on the spot, caught unprepared.

Father used to do it on purpose. He’d catch her unawares, often standing in the hallway waiting for her to come out of her bedroom or the bathroom, and ask her questions for which he knew she had the wrong answers. “Shelly.” His voice, no matter how smoothly her name flowed from his lips, always made her start violently, sending her heart surging up into the back of her throat, blocking her words and trapping her in helpless silence. “Did you help Mother with dinner tonight?”  She’d stare up at him, trying desperately to remember whether he liked the food or not. If she nodded, he’d slap her. If she shook her head, he’d slap her. It was never hard—at least it never left a lasting mark—but it always did what it was intended to do. It stung her flesh just enough to tear open her soul and leave her completely unsure of anything.

In the dark, after her father fell asleep, Mother would creep in and sit on the edge of her bed, knowing without asking, that her daughter was awake and dry-eyed, curled in on herself. Mother would stroke the knobby bones of her spine, following the c-shape of her back with her tentative fingers. “It’s for your own good, Shelly. You need to be prepared. Always be prepared. Life is hard, and no matter how careful you are, how good you are, how brave you are, things happen that we can’t control. We need to be prepared for bad things. They happen. And if you’re prepared for them, you won’t be caught by surprise.” Her touch never brought solace, but there was comfort in its tentative consistency. Father always knocked her off balance, Mother always put things back into perspective.

“Always be prepared, Shelly. Be prepared, or be scared.” She muttered the mantra under her breath as she dashed up the steps one more time to get her purse from the kitchen counter.

Digits was waiting for her, just like Father used to do, and Shelly was not prepared. Her toes caught the cat in the ribcage, making it yowl in surprise, and she reached frantically for the wall, the back of the kitchen chair, the counter, all just beyond her outstretched fingers.

Down, down, down she went, her left leg under her at an awkward angle, unable to find footing in her ill-fitting, slick-soled dress shoes.

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April Shadows Jasmine Green Tea

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She lay crumpled on the floor, the nerve-endings in her body screaming at her, as pain coursed through her. Could she move? Had she broken something? What if her back was broken? She’d read about so many patients who might have walked again if they hadn’t been moved by desperate friends or family members at the scene of the injury. Did she dare try to move? What if she did and permanently damaged her spinal cord, leaving her paralyzed for life? Who would take care of Mr. Tibbles, and Molly Mia, and Digits, and Twinky-Dink?

The smallest of her cats padded over and rubbed her little body against Shelly’s hip, mewing softly. This little girl rarely came down from her window perch where she slept in a patch of sunlight during the day. At night, she was braver, wandering around the house, keeping to the shadowy corners and beneath furniture. She had only one eye, the other having been so damaged by a kick to the head, that the veterinarian had offered her no hope in salvaging it. “Steel-toed boots and cats don’t mix.” His words might seem callous to anyone else, but Shelly preferred his straightforward talk over those who used tricky phrases to soften the blow of the ugly truth. “I’d rather be prepared than scared,” she’d told him the first time she’d brought Dr. Otis one of her cats. He’d looked her in the eye and told her the truth without mincing words, just as he had time and time again since.

“Oh, little Twinky. It’s going to be okay.” She worried that Twinky-Dink would be able to sense her apprehension, and she didn’t want the cat to be afraid. The poor thing had lived enough of her life in fear already. Mr. Tibbles wandered over, walked around her a few times, then disappeared down the hall. Molly Mia was probably already asleep in the bedroom, and Digits was nowhere to be seen.

“Digits? Mommy’s going to be okay,” she called out, wondering if any of the cats would try to get out the front door she’d left standing open several feet away.

She lay there, futilely guarding the door with her eyes. Should she call for help? Would anyone hear her? Would anyone care? No one ever bothered with her except Joe next door, but she’d made sure he knew that theirs was not a friendship; they were just neighbors. And now this Willow girl. Well, she’d chased her off just as effectively as the steel-toed boot had chased off Twinky-Dink. She’d seen the wounded look in her eyes.

Making up her mind, she gathered her courage and strength, and brought her hands up under her, pushing her torso up slowly, slowly, so that she was leaning on her right hip. She whimpered a little as she tried to straighten her left leg; she reached down and pulled up the hem of her skirt to look at her knee. It was already beginning to swell.

“Well, at least I didn’t injure my spine,” she sniffed, realizing that the intense pain meant she wasn’t paralyzed. Using her right leg to push, she dragged her body backwards on her rear-end until she could reach the door, pushing it closed before collapsing against the wall beside it. “Oh, Twinky-Dink. This is not good. What am I going to do about work?” The cat had followed her across the floor and continued to rub against her thigh, her hip, nudging its head against her forearm.

“Oh no! My files! They’re in the car! What if someone breaks in and steals them? I’m going to be in so much trouble.” She reached up for the doorknob and pulled the door open again, just enough to be able to keep an eye on her car. “Not like it’s going to make a difference,” she muttered. “What am I going to do? Yell at them to stop?”

She leaned her head back against the wall and closed her eyes. She couldn’t believe the predicament she was in. Everything was so planned out. It always went so smoothly, like clockwork. What happened?

Willow Goodhope happened, that’s what. If she hadn’t showed up, startling Shelly half to death, putting her on the spot about being sociable, none of this would have happened.

“It’s not your fault, Digits,” she called out for the cat. “You can come out. It’s that Willow Goodhope’s fault. She did this to us.”

Twinky-Dink climbed onto her lap and curled up, having correctly surmised that she wasn’t planning on going anywhere anytime soon. Mr. Tibbles wandered through again, gave the little cat a daggered look, then kept going. Digits was still a no-show.

Fifteen minutes later, she was still sitting there, her knee throbbing too painfully for her to get up, although she’d tried a few times. But she knew she needed to get ice on it, she knew she needed to get up off the floor, and worse, she was beginning to feel like she needed to use the bathroom.

Footsteps on the gravel drive outside had her sitting up straighter, wincing as she twisted a little too quickly. She peered through the tiny crack in the door. She couldn’t see the driveway, but if the person approached her car or the front door, she’d know.

The footsteps slowed, stopped altogether, then picked up the pace again, until the person came into view. Willow Goodhope. What was she doing back here? She bent over and peeked into the car window, then turned  toward the front door. Shelly jerked back, catching her breath at the pain shooting down her leg, and pressed her teeth together over her lips to keep the gasp trapped inside her mouth.

“Shelly?” The woman’s voice sounded worried, but she wasn’t sure she wanted Willow’s help. Hadn’t she ‘helped’ her enough already this morning?

She was mounting the steps now. “Shelly? Are you in there?” The footsteps paused a few feet away and it suddenly occurred to Shelly how frightening the situation might seem to someone who stumbled upon it. She sighed through her nose, not wanting the red-haired busybody to do anything ridiculous, like call the police, and pulled open the door just enough to press one eye to it.

“Yes.”

“Are you… all right?” Willow didn’t come any closer, and seemed taken aback when she realized Shelly’s eye was at knee-level.

“Um… yes.” She couldn’t ask this girl to help her; she just couldn’t. “But could you do me a favor?”

“Of course. Anything.” She still kept her distance, the questions in her eyes turning to wariness. “Are you sure you’re all right?”

“Yes, I’m fine,” she snapped. “Could you just go next door and see if Joe is awake?”

“Absolutely.” Willow’s brows furrowed, as though she was reconsidering leaving Shelly alone, then she turned around and hurried down the steps, disappearing from sight. Shelly breathed in and out slowly, trying to calm her nerves, and get a better control over her pain.

It seemed forever before she heard voices coming around the end of the trailer; a deep, male voice, but not Joe’s, and it sounded like at least two women’s voices. What had that girl gone and done?

Into her view came a young man. He was tall and slender, his hooded gray sweatshirt unzipped halfway down his chest to reveal a tight white t-shirt underneath. He wore jeans that were shredded at the knees, and brown leather shoes that weren’t quite loafers. Over his shoulder he carried a sturdy cane. Behind him was Willow, followed closely by a woman she didn’t recognize.

“Shelly? I’m back. Joe wasn’t home, so I brought Ivan instead. And Patti.”

She wasn’t going to let them in.

The three of them made their way up the steps onto her porch, and before she had time to tell them to leave her alone, the fellow dropped into a crouch right in front of her. He smiled gently, his voice soothing. “I’m Ivan. I used to live here with my parents, but I don’t think we’ve ever met.” He inched closer, his voice dropping. “I need to know if you’re okay. Are you alone? Are you hurt?” He spoke so kindly, so tenderly, so differently than she’d ever been spoken to by a man before. Was it a trick? But when she looked at his face, his eyes, she was sure she could see right through him and into his heart. He really wanted to know how she was.

“I’m alone. I…I tripped and fell. I think I h—hur—” and then the tears started to come. “My knee,” she whispered, her voice breaking on its way out.

“May I come in?”

She glanced over his shoulder to see Willow and Patti standing back, giving her and Ivan space, and she felt guilty for her unkind thoughts toward the younger woman. Nodding, she nudged the door open, then leaned back against the wall again. Twinky-Dink leapt off her lap and disappeared down the hall.

Ivan stepped inside and Shelly felt her skin prickle with renewed anxiety. This was the first man besides Father who’d been inside her home. Ever. And it had been four years since he’d last stepped across the threshold, at least in real life. But Ivan continued to speak gently, carefully, as though dealing with a frightened child.

“Your knee, you said?” He gestured at her legs, but her skirt was pulled modestly down. “Would you prefer my mom to take a look? Or Willow?”

She swiped at her embarrassing tears with the back of her hand. “Okay.” It was just a whisper.

“I’m Patti,” the older woman said as she hurried forward, Willow right behind her. “I’m sorry we haven’t met before.” She reached over and took Shelly’s hand, holding it between her two cool, soft ones. “What happened?”

While she explained in clipped phrases about her fall, Willow bent over her, lifting the hem of her skirt just enough to expose her knee, a frown forming between her brows. There was that fragrance again—it actually reminded her of the chamomile tea she’d had this morning, but there was something sweet and exotic over the top of it. “How long ago did you fall, Shelly? Was it right after I left?”

She nodded.

“Okay. Can I have Ivan call an ambulance?”

“No!” She stiffened and sat forward, pushing everyone’s hands away. “No ambulance. I’ll be fine. I just landed hard. I don’t need a doctor.” Every time an ambulance came to her house, they took someone away and never brought them back. She knew it was foolish to blame it on the ambulance, but something in her did anyway. If she was going anywhere, it wouldn’t be in a shrieking, wailing, death van. Besides, she couldn’t afford health insurance, but she made just enough money, that she didn’t qualify for government help. She was one of those people who fell through the cracks of a broken system.

“Okay. It’s okay. How about if we just make you a little more comfortable. Your backside must be numb by now. Maybe a cushion? A pillow under your knee and some ice?”

Shelly stared at her knee, a little embarrassed over her outburst. It did look awful. Maybe if they could help her stand, she’d better be able to tell how bad it was. “I don’t want to stay on the floor.”

“No, of course you don’t, honey.” Patti beckoned Ivan closer. “Why don’t you let Ivan and Willow help you up? We can at least get you into a chair. Would you like that?”

It took several attempts to get her upright because of her pain, but with her arms around their shoulders, and her weight on her right leg, she gingerly bent her knee a little, then put some weight on her toe to see what she could bear. It hurt, that was for sure, and she wasn’t going to be able to do much more than rest it on the ground for a while, but it wasn’t quite as bad as she’d feared. Maybe just the shock of the fall had her too frightened to be objective.

Her rescuers helped her hobble to the table and sit, bringing another chair around for her to prop her leg on. Willow tucked a sofa cushion under her knee. She was so relieved to be off the floor, but how was she going to get around? She couldn’t put weight on her leg, not enough to walk on, anyway, and she certainly couldn’t hop around on one foot. How was she going to take care of her kitties?

As though reading her mind, Patti spoke. “Ivan, why don’t you run over and grab one of your dad’s walkers? The one with the wheels. He prefers the other one anyway, and I think the wheels will work better for Shelly.”

“Of course!” And the young man was out the door in a flash. Willow laid a hand on Patti’s shoulder.

“Patti, do you think you could make an ice pack while I run back to my place and get some supplies?” She turned to Shelly and explained. “I can make you a compress that will help with some of the bruising and swelling, if you’ll let me. Between that and the ice, you may be okay not going to the emergency room. Although I know we’d all feel better if you went. One of us could take—”

“No ambulance. No hospital. No emergency room. I’m not going anywhere. I’ll be fine.”

By the time Willow returned with a basket in her arms, Ivan was back, too, and he and Patti were demonstrating how to use the walker while Shelly sat with a bag of ice wrapped in a towel against the side of her knee.

“I brought over my first aid book,” Willow said, holding up a bright yellow hard-back book. “It says the first thing you need to do is RICE. Rest. Ice. Compression. Elevation. So I think we’re on the right track.” She handed it to Shelly and reached back into her basket for a wide elastic wrap bandage. “I didn’t know if you’d have one of these or not, so I brought one from my handy-dandy first aid kit. I’m going to wrap your knee to compress it, okay?”

Over the next half an hour, the four of them worked together to get her as prepared as she could be to face the rest of the day. Ivan gallantly offered to take her files in for her and bring her back her new assignments. “I have to get going anyway. I just came by to have breakfast with Mom and Dad, but I need to get to work now. The hospital is on my way, so it will work out perfectly.” As soon as he’d left, Patti and Willow helped her get comfortable in bed, her leg propped on pillows, an icepack on either side of her knee.

“Jasmine.” The word came to her as if on a breeze, and drifted out between her lips.

“Pardon?” Patti asked.

Shelly was embarrassed, but explained anyway. “You smell like Jasmine tea, Willow. I’ve been trying to place it all morning.”

“Really? You think so?” Patti glanced over at Willow, then eyed Shelly curiously.

Willow’s eyes twinkled. “Do you like jasmine tea, Shelly?”

“I…I don’t really know. My mom used to have a special box of it in the pantry for when my grandmother visited. I wasn’t allowed to drink it, but I used to sneak in there just to smell that box.” She let herself remember; Grandma Turner and her funny, flappy arms, hugging her too tightly, and kissing the top of her head. “I think I might like it, actually. Maybe I’ll pick some up the next time I go shopping.” A small bird fluttered in the pit of her belly at the thought of straying from her routine, but the jasmine tea had to be close to the chamomile, right?

“Well, you worry about that when you’re up on your feet again.” Willow reached down and patted her hand where it rested on the arm of the sofa. “For now, sleep. We’ll be back to check on you this evening after you get up, okay? Then I’ll show you how to make a compress for your knee.”

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Chapter 4

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April Shadows Breakfast Shared

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She’d been so tired after the excitement of the morning, that she was sure she’d fall to sleep as soon as the house quieted. But even with her drapes drawn and the room shrouded in shadows, the cats nestled around her, and the anti-inflammatory pills she’d taken, Shelly could not close her eyes without seeing the look on Willow’s face when she’d rejected her and all that she had offered earlier this morning. Would it be so bad to have a friend or two? Would it be so terrible to have someone who cared enough to stop in and say ‘hi’ every once in a while? To share a cup of tea together? To—

“Who am I kidding,” she muttered into the still air. “What do I have to offer someone like Willow Goodhope? Even her name is like a gift.” She draped an arm across her eyes. She hadn’t realized what lonely felt like until today. When Mother passed away, she’d been so overwhelmingly relieved, and she’d felt guilty, convincing herself that she didn’t need—or deserve—people in her life. The cats were companions enough. Until today. Until that Willow Goodhope showed up on her doorstep, wanting to meet her, wanting to have a relationship with her.

“Why, Mr. Tibbles? What’s so great about me that someone like her would want to be my friend?” She stroked the cat who lay curled into her side, and eyed the walker where it waited for her beside the bed, in case she needed to make a bathroom run in the middle of the day. “And why would Patti and Ivan want to help me?”

The cat had no answers, but purred loudly instead, a little motor vibrating against her ribcage. Shelly wondered if sleep would ever come.

When she awoke several hours later, her knee throbbed, and her hip ached from being propped in one position for so long. She needed more ice, she needed more ibuprofen, and she needed to use the bathroom. Maneuvering herself into position on the edge of the bed, she pushed up and grabbed onto the handle bars of the walker, moaning softly as gravity tugged at her knee. She made it to the bathroom without a mishap, finished in there, then headed to the kitchen for ice and a glass of water. By the time she’d taken her pills and reloaded her bag of ice, which she hung from around her wrist so she could keep both hands firmly gripping the walker, she didn’t think she could make it back to her bed. She ended up on the couch instead, and with miserable tears streaming down her face, she propped her leg up the best she could and sank back into the cushions. She’d wait there until help arrived.

They showed up at six o’clock sharp, armed with a beautiful twig basket filled with muffins, a pound of bacon, and a dozen eggs, and a little gift bag with her name on it. Inside the bag was a Japanese tea cup with a delicate little lid, a linen drawstring of loose-leaf jasmine green tea, and a tea ball. A Get Well card was signed from both the ladies, and from Ivan and Richard, too, and Shelly kept her head down, not sure how to react. She didn’t receive gifts; she didn’t know how to accept this gracefully.

“Thank you,” she muttered.

She had Willow feed the cats in the bedroom and close the door so they wouldn’t be underfoot during the meal. In the meantime, Patti helped her get comfortable in a chair at the table, handling her so attentively that Shelly commented on it. “Oh, this is what I do all day, honey. My husband, Richard, he’s home-bound. I take care of him.”

“My mother was home-bound. I took care of her.” She didn’t really mean to say it out loud, but she was tired from her lack of good sleep, and her guard was down. Willow made herself busy with breakfast preparations, but Shelly could tell she was listening.

“Well, then, you and I have a lot in common,” Patti stated. “You would be a good person to talk to when I have those days, if you know what I mean.” She winked at her. “Don’t tell me you never had any of those days.”

She closed her eyes and nodded slightly. “I had many of those days. Mother wasn’t an easy patient.”

“And Richie hasn’t always been an easy patient either. But, thanks to Ms. Goodhope here, he’s behaving a lot better, lately, right Willow?”

“I think it has a lot more to do with love than with me, Patti. He just finally realized the treasure he had in you.” Willow looked like she was blushing, but it could have been from the heat that was rising off the pan of bacon sizzling on the stove top.

“Regardless, I’d like to help you, Shelly.” Patti sat down opposite her and laced her fingers together on the table in front of her. “Would you let me, since you won’t go to the hospital?”

“Unless you’ve changed your mind and you want to go.” Willow chimed in, but she shook her head.

“I can’t go to the hospital, Willow. I just can’t.” She didn’t say it with any malice; it was just a statement of fact. “I understand that it must be hard to stand by and watch me refuse treatment, but it’s my decision, okay?”

“You’re right, and I’m not arguing with you.” Willow smiled warmly from the stove. “I’m the same way. I always try to treat things at home first. I grew up without hospitals and medical care, so I’m used to doing what I can naturally.”

“You should see the stuff she made for Richie, Shelly. It’s salve for his scars—he suffered pretty significant burns from a car accident he survived—and it works better than anything you could find over the counter.” Patti leaned forward and plucked a napkin from the holder in the middle of the table, giving her hands something to do. “Will you let me help you? Richie needs me so much less these days, and I’ve been hankering for something to do with myself.”

“I’m not a charity case.” This time her words did come out ugly, and she sounded just like Father to her own ears. How many times had she heard him say stuff like that?

“I know you’re not a charity case, Shelly, but I need to be needed,” Patti reassured her. “It’s my personality. Some might call it a weakness, but I think of it as my strength. God put it in my heart to be a helper. It’s what I do best. You need help and I can help you.”

“I’m sorry.” The words came crawling out of her mouth like a reluctant creature. When was the last time she’d apologized for her own behavior? And meant it? “I wish I knew how to be a better person. I’m used to cats.”

“Oh sweetie, don’t be silly. You’re in pain. No one is nice when they’re in pain.” Then she turned and eyed Willow. “Except for you, Willow. You’re always nice, but I know you’re in pain sometimes, too. Maybe not the sprained knee or busted back kind of pain, but heart pain can be just as debilitating. How do you manage to be so kind all the time?”

Shelly watched the two women from the corner of her eye, feeling somehow intrusive, as though she’d just stumbled into the middle of something she knew nothing about. Willow didn’t speak for a long time, but instead of filling the uncomfortable silence with words, Patti sat quietly and refolded her napkin.

“I try to focus on the pain that does heal, or at least the pain that lessens. It gives me something to do. In that, Patti, you and I are a lot alike.”

Shelly heard the dismissal in Willow’s voice. Would Patti take the hint?

“All pain lessens over time, honey.” Nope.

“Not all pain.” There was an edge in Willow’s voice that seemed incongruous with her soft eyes and gentle spirit. The silence that followed carried echoes of Willow’s suffering, and she felt her own shoulders hunch defensively.

“So, who would like some breakfast? I love breakfast for dinner, but this really is breakfast for breakfast for you, isn’t it Shelly?” Willow had scrambled eggs in the pan she’d fried the bacon in, and although she’d drained the bacon grease into a smaller container to cool, the eggs still were flecked with little bits of the meat that had been left behind. They looked delicious.

Not for the first time today, she was glad she still kept the trailer as spotless as it was back when Father was still alive. It was one of the few things she didn’t change. It helped keep her calm; having order and cleanliness around her. She changed the cat’s litter box daily, she washed their bowls between feeding, and she used odor-neutralizing room spray to mask any lingering smells. Her desk was always organized, with everything in its place, and she paid her bills the day she received them rather than waiting for any due date. Shelly liked order. She liked knowing what to expect. She liked to be prepared, even for when things didn’t go as expected, like today. Because she was prepared, she was able to tell Willow exactly where her pots and pans and dishes were without being worried about what she’d find inside her cupboards. Because she was prepared, she hadn’t been embarrassed to let the two women help her into bed this morning. Because she was prepared, even though no one besides her and the cats had set foot inside her trailer in nearly two years since Mother died, she could sit straight in her chair and not be ashamed.

“Thank you, Jesus, for your blessings. So, tell us about what you do for work.” Willow tied the two sentences together as though Jesus was sitting at the table with them. Shelly almost looked over at the empty chair, just in case.

“I’m a medical transcriber. I transcribe doctor’s notes into patient files.”

“Oooooh.” Willow drew the word out, low, almost a whistle. “Top secret stuff. Are you sworn to confidentiality? What’s the weirdest thing you’ve ever come across?”

She could feel the smile forming at the corners of her mouth. “I don’t think you really want to know, especially not while we’re eating.”

“Oh dear me. No. Please don’t. I raised a son. When Ivan left home, I sent his gross dinner conversations with him.” Patti chuckled, and twirled her empty fork in Willow’s direction. “These eggs are wonderful! So light and fluffy and bacony.”

“Thank you. I use water, not milk.” She winked. “And that’s my top secret information for the day. Tell us something interesting, Shelly. It doesn’t have to be gross, just interesting. I mean, how long have you been doing this? There must be oodles of crazy stories in that brain of yours.”

She grinned self-consciously, and sipped her hot tea, a sense of peace washing over her. This was so pleasant, sharing her table with these two women. “I try not to remember, honestly. I’m always afraid I’m going to be in line at the checkout in the grocery store and the guy behind the counter will have a name tag that matches a patient file. What if that patient had some kind of weird ailment or parasite or something? How could I let him touch my food?”

“Hm. I can see your predicament.” Patti nodded sagely. “Best to forget, I think.”

“I do read some cute stuff about children, though. Things like peanuts in the nose or M&M’s in the ear. It’s always harder for me to forget their stories, especially the sad ones.” Suddenly it felt like all the things she hadn’t said over the years were scrambling at the back of her throat to get out, pushing against that band that always seemed so quick to tighten, to force her into silence. “I hate to hear some of the things adults do to children, and sometimes the things other children do to children are even more frightening. This bullying thing you hear all over the news? It’s almost as if the more we draw attention to it, the more we see it happen. At least, that’s what the charts seem to reflect.” She paused to sip some orange juice. The ibuprofen she’d taken was working better now that she had some food in her stomach. “I suppose it still could be parents who are abusing their kids and just telling the doctors it’s bullies.” That was just the kind of thing Father would do. He could be so adamant that it wasn’t his fingerprints on the inside of her upper arms, even she would half-believe him.

“I just don’t understand child abuse. I know not every child is planned, and I can even understand letting anger get the best of you.” Patti was folding and re-folding her napkin now, her eyes following the movements of her fingers. “There were times I wanted to beat the living tar out of Ivan, and the worst of it was when I was young and he was little. The older I got, the more control I maintained, but that was a case of maturity on my part, not because I wanted to hurt him any less.” She chuckled softly. “Believe me, when he turned fifteen, I thought he was demon-possessed. He was like a different kid! But I simply handled it better because I’d grown up.”

Shelly nodded, not sure what to say, trying to understand Patti’s way of thinking. It sounded so foreign to her ears; just the opposite of the way things had been in her home. The older she got, the meaner Father was, and the more childlike Mother became. The only one who seemed to mature was her, and there were still days when all she wanted to do was curl up in the bottom of her sheets with her flashlight, hiding away from the world, her breath making the air moist around her face until she thought she might suffocate. Even then, she wouldn’t un-burrow. She’d just stick an arm out from under the covers and open up an air tunnel just long enough to replenish her supply. Sometimes, although she’d never admit it, she still did it, usually on those days when Father came home in her dreams, reminding her that she was still a nothing.

She felt a prickle in her armpits and pressure behind her eyes when she thought too long about Father, and made a concerted effort to move the conversation along. “I think, in some ways, even sadder are the stories about children whose parents hurt them unintentionally. Not only are they devastated by whatever accident has happened, but then they have to endure the police investigation and Child Protective Services.” She took a small bite of eggs before continuing; they really were good. “Years ago, I worked on the chart of this child who’d been burned by liquid drain cleaner. Her father had poured it in the tub and closed the bathroom door so it could sit for the allotted period of time, but the toddler got the door open somehow. They discovered her just as she was leaning over the tub, so they thought she was okay until she started screaming. What they hadn’t realized until it was too late, was that she’d pulled the shower curtain up and over the lip of the tub, then leaned against it. The cleaner on the curtain soaked into the front of her shirt and started burning her little belly. To make matters worse, the panicking mom peeled the shirt off up over her head without thinking, and the stuff spread to the little girl’s face and eyes. Because of the pattern of the burns, there was a criminal investigation, photos were taken, CPS was called in, and the couple was held under surveillance in the hospital until everyone accepted their story as truth. The doctor I transcribed for followed-up with the little girl’s burns for weeks.”

“What a terrible ordeal.” Patti leaned back in her chair, shaking her head. “I can’t even begin to imagine what that must have been like for those poor parents.”

Willow stood abruptly, reaching for Patti’s empty plate. Her eyes glistened in her pale face, the flush from cooking completely gone. “Are you finished or would you like some more eggs? There are more muffins, too, but we ate all the bacon on the first round.”

“Oh.” Patti sat up, clearly surprised by Willow’s behavior. “I’m sorry, Willow. Did we say something to upset you?”

“Oh no, of course not!” But her eyes were too bright, too wide, and Shelly wasn’t fooled. “I just thought since I was getting up to get seconds, I’d offer some to you as well. What about you, Shelly?” She glanced down at her plate. It still held almost her full serving of uneaten eggs, a strip of bacon, and half her muffin; she’d been too busy talking to eat. She drew her plate closer to her instinctively.

“I’m good for now,” She stated slowly, wondering what had gotten into Willow.

They sat in silence while the red-haired woman bustled around the kitchen, refilling her teacup, and scooping the last of the eggs onto her plate before returning to the table. Shelly felt somehow responsible for the rift in the conversation. She had to say something.

“Willow, I haven’t really thanked you for helping me this morning. What made you come back by my place after I was so…rude to you?”

“Oh, Shelly. You had to ask.” Willow smiled again, all traces of withdrawal gone from her face. “I was hoping you’d already left for work and I could sneak over and leave you an ‘I’m sorry’ note. I felt so terribly about barging in on you and making you late, and I didn’t want our relationship starting off on the wrong foot.” She laughed, her loud guffaw not irritating the way it was that morning, and pointed at Shelly’s elevated leg. “Now look at you! Talk about starting off on the wrong foot!”

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Chapter 5

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April Shadows Sanctuary

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After exchanging phone numbers, Patti promised to check in with her before she and Richard went to bed, then again when she got up in the morning, assuring Shelly that she regularly awoke around 6 or 6:30. “But don’t hesitate to call if you need anything at all—and I mean, anything at all, Shelly—in the middle of the night, you hear?” Patti patted her cheek. “I mean it.”

From her comfortable position on the sofa, she watched them go. Her knee was propped up on a stack of pillows and Willow had made her an elderberry leaf poultice. “It’s a slight irritant that will stimulate circulation to the area, helping the body absorb and distribute the pooled blood that makes the bruise. All that increased blood flow also encourages healing to damaged tissue. So use the ice until you need a break, then spread some of this on a wet wash cloth, heat it up in the microwave—not too hot, mind you—and put it over the bruised area. It really does wonders, I’m telling you. You’ll see.” She must have seen the skepticism in Shelly’s eyes. “My mom taught me this. I’ve used it my whole life. It works.”

Willow let the cats out of the bedroom, leaned over to hug her briefly, then pulled the front door closed behind her and Patti.

“You still smell like jasmine, Willow.” She spoke into the aromatic stillness they left behind.

Shelly was alone again. She stroked Mr. Tibbles from the tips of his ears to the tip of his tail. She poked at Digits with her good foot; she’d finally taken herself out of her self-imposed exile and was threading her way around the legs of the coffee table. Molly Mia jumped up on the back of the couch cushions and walked along them until she got to her favorite spot, then curled into a ball, her tail twitching ever so often against Shelly’s shoulder. Twinky-Dink still hadn’t come out of the bedroom.

Not only was she alone, but she was suddenly very, very lonely.

It had been so nice just to sit and visit with the other two women. Sure, there were those few moments of discomfort in the conversation, but in some ways, it made Shelly feel better to know that Patti and Willow weren’t already best friends, that they were still getting to know each other, too. It made her feel more like she was on equal footing with them. And what a strange feeling that was. Equal footing? Had she ever felt like she was playing on the same level as anyone else? Tonight, with these two very different women, she’d felt like she belonged.

She wanted to feel that way again. “I suppose we could change our sleeping schedule, couldn’t we?” she asked out loud, for the first time feeling slightly foolish talking to her cats as though they cared what she said. “Do you think we could learn to sleep at night and work and play during the day like normal people?” The thought made her scalp tingle a little. She’d never slept well at night, so adjusting to the cats’ nocturnal schedules hadn’t been a stretch. Going back to ‘normal people’ schedules might be easier said than done, but if it meant holding on to that feeling of belonging, she’d make it happen. Besides, with Father gone, there was no reason to fear sleeping at night.

She laid her head back on the sofa cushions behind her, bumping against Molly Mia’s back. Her hand rested on the open pages of the book she’d been reading for the last hour or two. But her lack of sleep was catching up with her, and she was just getting ready to reach over and turn off the lamp on the end table beside her when she heard his footsteps outside. Father.

No, not Father. Her thoughts had been focused on him so much over the last several hours, that his name was the first one to pop into her mind. But if not Father, then it had to be The Shadow Man. And suddenly, The Shadow Man mattered to her… because Willow Goodhope and Patti Davis and her husband, Richard, mattered to her. Because Joe Sanderson, and heart-rock Kathy mattered to her.

“What should I do, Mr. Tibble?” Should she raise the alarm? Call Patti and Richard? They were most certainly already in bed. And what could they do, what with Richard’s limitations? But shouldn’t she at least warn Willow? On the other hand, what if he had nothing to do with Willow at all? What if Kathy really was a crackhead and he was her dealer? If that was the case, Shelly needed to call Eddie, the park manager.

The clock on the wall said it was nearly 10:45 pm. She knew she’d probably wake him up, but it had to be done. Picking up her phone, she dialed the man’s number. When his gruff voice answered so abruptly, she almost panicked and hung up.

“Hello? Who is this?” Eddie didn’t sound amused by her continued silence. She had to get it out before her throat closed up.

“It’s me, Eddie. Shelly, over in Space 8. There’s a strange man walking along the driveway back here. This isn’t the first time I’ve seen him, and it’s always after dark.”

“What? A man?” Eddie sounded really grumpy now. “He’s probably visiting Kathy. Or Willow, the new girl down in 12. I’m sure it’s all okay, Shelly.”

He was going to hang up and do nothing. She had to stop him. “No! No, Eddie. It’s not okay. He shouldn’t be here. He’s being sneaky and he’s not visiting anyone. He’s just wandering around back here.”

The line was so quiet, she was certain he’d already hung up, but then she heard him sigh, letting out his breath so that his lips made a quiet raspberry sound. “Fine. I’ll come check it out. But if he’s a friend of Kathy’s, you owe me.”

“Wait. I owe you? I owe you what?” No. This was not Father. She didn’t owe Eddie anything except space rental. Her trailer was paid for, free and clear.

“It’s a saying, Shelly. Relax. I’m going after your boogie man now.” Then he did hang up.

A few minutes later, she heard his heavy boots clomping along over the bridge and past her home, his footsteps big and bold on the gravel. There was no way The Shadow Man could miss the fact that he was being followed.

It wasn’t long before she heard Eddie’s footsteps coming back. She could see through the narrow slits between the blinds, the beam of his flashlight cutting swatches of light in the darkness outside. She wondered if he’d stop at her place, but he just kept walking, back across the little bridge to the front of the property. Had he found The Shadow Man?

Her phone rang. Eddie’s voice was still raspy, but he sounded more alert. “Well, Shelly, I think I saw your boogie man. I was almost to the laundry shed when I saw a guy cross the bridge over there. I followed him, and he left the property by going past Doc’s place and out onto the street. He knew I was on to him. I don’t think he’ll be back, but I’ll be watching for him now. And I’ll let Doc know, too. He’s a light sleeper and pays close attention to what goes on here.” He paused briefly, and Shelly wondered if he expected her to say something. “Can you tell me anything more about him? Do you know what he looks like?”

“No. Just that he always comes around between ten and midnight. And, at least the times I’ve noticed him, he’s come over the bridge on foot, so he must be passing your place, too. I didn’t worry about it at first, thinking he might be someone’s friend, like you said, but now I don’t know. He’s slow, too, like he’s being careful. And he sticks to the shadows. He never seems to stay very long, either. It’s almost as though he’s just checking on something. Or someone. I’m sorry I can’t tell you more.”

“Okay. Well, thanks for letting me know.” He cleared his throat, then tried to sound reassuring. “We’ll watch for him. Don’t you worry.”

“Thank you.” She wasn’t sure what else to say, so she returned the phone to its cradle.

In the stillness that followed, a smile began to tug at her mouth. She’d done it. She’d reached out to her new friends. They may never know it, and she wasn’t about to tell them about The Shadow Man—she didn’t want to frighten them needlessly—but she’d taken the initiative, and the first step of contributing to these new relationships. They all needed each other, this odd, mismatched collection of people at The Coach House Trailer Park. She’d fooled no one but herself into believing that she didn’t need anyone, that she was better off alone, that she was complete in her own little world.

No, it was time to open her doors and let others into her life. It was time to release Mother and the guilt she felt every time she thought of the pitiful life the woman had led. It was time to refuse Father entrance into her sanctuary, once and for all.

“Get out,” she whispered, softly, tentatively. “Get out.” Her voice grew. “Get out!” Something terrible and wild surged up inside of her, and she wanted to stand up, to run, to tear at her skin to let it out. She could do none of that, not with her banged-up knee, so she grabbed a pillow and held it to her face.

“Get out! Get out! Get out!” She screamed it over and over, not three times, but a hundred times or more, until her voice grew hoarse and the pillow moist with her harsh breath and debriding tears. When she finally let it fall to the floor at her feet, her hands flopped limply on the sofa beside her, and she laid her head back, eyes closed in release. “This is my house, my home, my sanctuary. You, Father, are no longer welcome here.”

The blinds at the back door clattered lightly. “Come here, Digits,” she called. “Mommy loves you. I’m not angry.” Then she laughed out loud. “I’m not angry anymore.”

Digits, the cat with only three toes on her front left foot, stood up and stretched. She’d been curled up on the floor at Shelly’s feet for some time. Molly Mia followed suit, leaving her perch on the back of the sofa to follow her friend. Mr. Tibbles stayed in her lap, not even lifting his head during Shelly’s tirade.

“Twinky-Dink? Is that you back there?” She turned to look over her shoulder at the slider, the plastic strips still stirring slightly, then down the hall toward the open door of her bedroom. The timid little cat was on the bed, playing with one of the catnip mice Kathy had left on her doorstep back in January.

“Father?” She sat up straighter and listened. The blinds stilled and there was nothing. Her heart didn’t race. Her scalp didn’t tingle. Her breathing stayed slow and steady.

Sanctuary.

“Goodbye, Father,” she whispered. “Peace, Mother.”

She couldn’t wait for the shadows of this night to fade into morning, knowing that Willow and Patti would be a part of the new day.

Of her new day.

April Shadows Sanctuary

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The End of Part 4: April Shadows

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I hope you enjoyed meeting Shelly Little of Space #8 at the Coach House Trailer Park, in Part 4: April Shadows.

Do come again in May to meet Eddie, the park manager, in Part 5: May Enchantment.

Be Still

Be still… and rest.

“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:14

Be still… and hold on to hope.

The Levites calmed all the people, saying, “Be still, for this is a holy day. Do not grieve.” Nehemiah 8:11

Be still… and wait patiently, without bitterness, without envy, without malice.

Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; do not fret when people succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.” Psalm 37:7

Be still… and believe that God is God.

He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalm 46:10

Be still… and be in AWE!

Be still before the Lord, all mankind, because he has roused himself from his holy dwelling.” Zechariah 2:13

Do you know what comes right before this verse?

“Shout and be glad, Daughter Zion. For I am coming, and I will live among you,” declares the Lord. “Many nations will be joined with the Lord in that day and will become my people. I will live among you and you will know that the Lord Almighty has sent me to you. The Lord will inherit Judah as his portion in the holy land and will again choose Jerusalem.” (vs. 10-12)

Celebration! Shouts of Victory! 

But in the midst of celebration, He calls us to be still… and acknowledge

Epicness

of WHO HE IS.

Because the King of Kings, the Lord of Lords, the Creator of all Heaven and Earth, has roused himself from His holy dwelling, to come live among us.

And He chooses to do so because

He’s epically in love with us.

With me. With you.

Every moment of stillness;

                     ~the silence between breaths

                                           ~the pause between sentences

                                                               ~the quiet between page-turns

                                                                                    ~the first–and last–waking moments

is another opportunity to BE STILL…AND BE IN LOVE WITH HIM.

Plans for the Future

I’m not much of a planner. I always have BIG plans, don’t get me wrong! But I tend to jump in with both feet, without even bothering to check if there’s a safety net… or at least a mattress waiting on the concrete slab below me.

In fact, I’m a LAUNCHER! I’m really good at starting things. Always have been. Do you know how many half-written manuscripts I have lying around???

FINISHING is my weakness, my Achille’s heel. It’s the FINISHING that requires the greatest intentional effort on my part.

But this month, I get to use my STRENGTH in a most rewarding way!

I’m participating in the LAUNCH of something that’s teaching me to plan. Plan ahead. Communicate. Coordinate. Work together. Flex – both my muscles and my will (argh!). Reach out. Encourage. Respond. Love. Connect.

That’s what Married… With Fiction is all about. Communicating. Reaching out. Encouraging. Loving. Responding.

Married… With Fiction is about CONNECTING with one another.

This Scripture passage resonated in my heart as the plans for Married… With Fiction began to come to fruition.

Vintage Rose Scripture

Paul LONGED for his fellow Christ-followers to LOVE abundantly! Not tolerantly, not co-existing with sin, but with knowledge and discernment, so that they would be putting out excellence and righteousness in their service to God.

Our marriages, our families, our writing – these are the excellent things, if we will give them to God to use for HIS glory. 

And this is what we long for at Married… With Fiction, too. That our little community abounds in love for one another, that we lift each other up and learn from each other, gaining knowledge and discernment along this journey, putting out excellent fruit in our marriages, in our families, in our stories.

Today, over at Married… With Fiction, I’m sharing some personal reasons why I felt the Lord was leading us to launch this new community.

Here’s an excerpt:

On June 25th, Kevin and I will be married for 25 years. I used to believe the fairy tales I read, that true love would overcome all obstacles, and in the arms of my champion, ‘happily ever after’ was a kiss and a horse ride away… until I realized I didn’t know how to ride a horse, and he wasn’t accustomed to sharing his steed with anyone. In fact, once I settled into the saddle with him, up close, I could see that my champion had a few flaws I hadn’t noticed from the ground. And apparently, I was flawed, too! The terrain got rough, the horse went lame, and before we knew what was happening, we were trudging along in the deadly shadows of night, on opposite sides of the broken beast between us. We finally shot the horse, and laid our marriage to rest.

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Plans for the Future

Do you have a special Scripture that has bolstered you on your journey?

Has God used a portion of His Word to direct your path?

Married… With Fiction!

I’m so excited!

Today, we launched Married… With Fiction, our community website where family values come together with heart-changing fiction!

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Come visit me at Married… With Fiction. There are so many wonderful benefits to being a part of a community, and Married… With Fiction is no exception!

Each EMAIL FOLLOWER will receive a digital copy of Life Letters: The Fruit of the Spirit, in the e-book format of your choice, and ALL FOLLOWERS (e-mail or RSS feed) have the opportunity of having your name and website posted to the Married… With Fiction Connections Page for FREE!

All month long, we’re celebrating our launch:

  • Gift Baskets
  • Book Giveaways
  • Special Guests
  • Contests
  • And MORE!

Okay. So a few question for my friends and my fellow writers: Would you be willing to share something significant about YOUR marriage? About your writing career? About mentors in your life? Leave a comment and your email address (in non-spam format) below, and let’s talk!

 

 

 

 

Are You Listening?

I had the opportunity to attend the one day National Christian Writer’s Conference in San Diego, California, this last weekend, with an author and pastor friend, Carl Prude. My champion, Kevin, drove us down so that he and our daughter could spend a father/daughter day enjoying gorgeous San Diego – the Gas Light District, the beach, Old Town – while Carl and I “conferred.”

The conference was wonderful, the authors who spoke were clearly Spirit-led, and the fellowship was truly blessed. But God revealed Himself to me in a way that let me know, without a doubt, that He was at work behind the scenes.

AnointingDuring the car ride there, we spoke about how God uses our brokenness to minister to others. Carl shared something that really resonated with me – he said that it is often through our brokenness that we become anointed. It’s our brokenness that gives us the heart for other broken people. It’s our brokenness that makes us trustworthy to those who have lost their faith, who are hopeless, betrayed.

The first author to speak, Angela Stout, began by stating she had a talk planned out that seemed dry, that she was going to share from her heart instead, based on some of the questions posed to her before the session began. Her next words had me sitting up straight in my chair.

She said, If you want your words to be used by God, you must ask for His anointing. Bathe your writing in prayer.”

I stole a glance at Carl. He just smiled, and nodded.

The next author, Diana Wallis Taylor, shared her remarkable testimony of brokenness… then challenged us to write from our lives, to be authentic, to allow God to use our pain and heartache for His plan. “The world doesn’t need more Christian writers,” she said, “but more Christians who write.”

Kathi Macias also spoke, not on the Train-of-Thought Writing Method she was scheduled to speak on, but about something the Lord put on her heart. She stated that God gives EVERY SINGLE HUMAN BEING A PASSION, A CALL ON THEIR LIVES, whether we’re saved or not.  But what happens when our God-given passion is submitted to God’s purpose? We become anointed with God’s power.

Are you hearing what I heard?

I went to this conference feeling unsure about my calling to write. I showed up wondering if and when my voice would be heard.

The Edge of BeliefYou see, my passion is to communicate the grace of Christ to broken believers living at the very edge of unbelief; believers who are hiding in the shadows of their pain, their hopelessness, their despair.

Just like I was for so many years.

Although I never stopped believing in God, I stopped believing that God believed in me. It’s a dangerous place to live – on the edge of belief. God becomes One I owe fealty to, rather than One who loves me beyond comprehension. God becomes the Head who turns a blind eye, rather than a Father who shields and protects. God becomes One who can’t be trusted to save, rather than the Rescuer of my soul and the Restorer of my broken heart.

But for grace, I would have fallen into the abyss. But for grace, I would still be living in darkness. But for grace, I would not be able to submit my brokenness to God, and ask for His anointing in my life. But for grace, I would not have the eyes to see others who need grace, too.

This is why I write. At the conference on Saturday, God affirmed me loud and clear, in His still, small voice, speaking to me through the anointed brokenness of others who’ve gone before me.

I’m listening.

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From Willow’s Basket: Elderberry Apple Pie

Willow Goodhope has the gift of giving. She finds great pleasure in touching people’s’ lives with the gifts that God puts on her heart to give.

Her favorite resource for her gifts is the common elder, also known as the black elder, the sambucus nigra. She considers the elderberry to be the quintessential “Giving Tree,” and most of her gifts are home-made items in which she uses parts of the elderberry. (It is important to note that ONLY the berries and flowers of the sambucus nigra are edible. Many other sambucus species are, in fact, poisonous. Know your herbs or buy your herbs from a reputable source, such as Mountain Rose Herbs, one of mine and Willow’s favorite online resources.)

In the third episode of my serial novel, Elderberry Croft, Part 3: March Whispers, Willow pays a visit to Joe Sanderson, bearing an elderberry apple pie in one of her elderberry twig baskets.

Twig-basket

 

“So, Miss Willow, is it time to celebrate?” She leapt up and crossed to the table, pulling the cloth back to reveal the contents of the basket she’d brought.

A golden-crusted pie, the edges rippled and thick, oozing with deep red syrup from the leaf-shaped slits in the top shell. This was no store-bought bakery item; this was the real deal, and so fresh it was still hot enough to warm his hands over.

“What have you gone and made there?”

“Have you ever had elderberry apple pie, Joe? I hope not, because this is one of my specialties, and I want it to be a first for you.” The shadows slipped away, unable to hold their ground in her excitement.

This is Willow’s favorite elderberry apple pie recipe, but you can do a crumb topping, or a lattice top, adjust your berry and apple ratio, even bake it without sauteing the apples in butter–although, I wouldn’t recommend it!

Willow Goodhope's Elderberry Apple PieWillow’s Elderberry Apple Pie

1 c. fresh (washed) elderberries (or 1/2 cup dried, reconstituted – instructions below)
3 tbsp. cornstarch OR tapioca
1/2 c. white sugar
1 TBLS lemon juice
2 1/2 c. thinly sliced tart apples
2 tsp cinnamon
1/4 c. butter
1/2 c. brown sugar
2 tbsp. butter for under top crust

2 Pie Crusts

Instructions

  • Preheat oven to 375 degrees.
  • Press one crust into bottom of 9 or 10-inch pie plate. Bake for 10 minutes, or until slightly golden. Remove from oven and set aside.
  • While pie crust is browning, mix cornstarch in a little bit of water (about 1/4 cup – best way to do this is to shake it up in a small jar with a lid.) and add to berries and white sugar. Cook over medium heat, stirring constantly, until desired thickness – like syrup. Add more cornstarch if not thick enough. Remove pan from heat, add lemon juice, and set aside.
  • Saute sliced apples in butter and cinnamon, until tender, but not soft. Add brown sugar at the end and toss the apples to coat.
  • Gently fold berries into apples. Pour into pie pan, but do not overfill, and reserve any syrup for ice cream later! place a few pats of butter on top of berries, if desired. Cover with second crust, cut slits or shapes in crust, seal the edges of the two crusts, and bake at 375 degrees for 30-40 minutes, or until crust is golden brown, and fruit is bubbling up through slits.
  • NOTE: You might want to put a cookie sheet or tinfoil beneath pie as sometimes this bubbles over.
  • Serve with ice cream and leftover syrup and/or filling on top! Yum.

I hope you’re enjoying getting to know the residents at The Coach House Trailer Park in January Breeze, February Embers, and March Whispers, and I look forward to sharing April Shadows with you next month! Do come back and meet Shelly Little…and learn a little more about Willow Goodhope.

Last month, Willow shared with us her recipe for elderberry muffins – did anyone try those? And in January, she shared with us her favorite cold and flu season elderberry tea, but it’s a great one for keeping your immune system boosted, too, so you can drink it year-round!

What is your favorite pie?

Telling Secrets

Locked Subjects

Telling Secrets

I tell secrets.

I whisper secrets between the pages of my stories, in nudges and winks, in smiles and sighs, in laughter and in tears.

I write because I believe secrets can change lives.

I write for believers living on the edge of unbelief, because their secret burdens seem too heavy to take to the cross.

Or for non-believers longing for something – or Someone – to believe in, because their secrets keep them chained to the past.

I write for those who don’t know where else to turn, who’re weary of being fed the perfectly calibrated formula that never seems to fill the empty places hollowed out by living.

I write for those who’ve been pummeled by life, or love…or by loved ones.

I write for those who have looked reality in the eyes and found only lies.

I write for those who cling to the quickly unraveling threads of hope, hoping against hope that my words can offer a little more hope.

In the ink spilled from the tip of my pen, like blood in water, I tell secrets.

Because there are some secrets that can only be whispered in fiction.

Telling Secrets

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Elderberry Croft: Part 3

March Whispers

Elderberry Croft Home

Welcome to Elderberry Croft

A Serial Book Written in Twelve Monthly Episodes

The residents of The Coach House Trailer Park are just as run-down as the park itself. In fact, they’ve all come here to die. Then one day, on a crisp January breeze, Willow Goodhope sweeps into the neighborhood. She moves into the lonely little shack on the other side of the driveway, bringing her potted plants, her Elderberry gifts, and her outrageous laughter. The Coach House residents can’t resist her charm as she breathes new life into hardened hearts, but there’s something about Willow, a terrible sadness that hovers at the back of her enigmatic eyes, and it has everyone talking, wondering, worrying. Kathy overhears her sobbing in her kitchen. Doc catches her burning letters in her fire pit. Myra swears she drinks alone out on her patio in the middle of the night. Patti knows the beautiful girl is after her husband, and Eddie and Donny, forever-feuding brothers, are competing to see who can make her smile first, even though they’re both fairly sure she’d prefer her men with real jobs, real homes, and real teeth. What–or who–is haunting the mysterious Willow Goodhope of Elderberry Croft? Will her new “family” be able to rescue her before it’s too late?

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Part 1: January Breeze

Part 2: February Embers

Part 3: March Whispers

March Whispers

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Chapter 1

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Joe smacked the back of his neck for the third time in less than ten minutes. How come they always found that one spot? Besides that, it was only March, for Moses’ sake, and the bugs had arrived far too early.

It was turning out to be a warm spring in Midtown, Southern California. The rain, like a woman, just toyed with the affections of gardeners such as him, offering little more than a load of sweet-talk and a string of no-shows. Joe Sanderson looked up at the sky with its full-to-bursting clouds and thought of the sugar-lipped woman he’d sent on her way just yesterday.

“Go on,” he’d said, shooing her off his front porch. “Go on home, now. I’m doin’ just fine on my own. Don’t need you comin’ in here, wipin’ counters and scrubbin’ floors.” Mm-mm, but that Vivian sure looked lovely standing there with her hands on her round hips, eyebrows arched like twin angry cats, arguing that he did, indeed, need someone around to take care of him.

“Joe, Baby, whether you like it or not, you’re getting old. You’re getting too old to see the dirt that’s collecting in the corners. You’re getting too—”

“Woman, if you tell me I’m too old for one more thing, I might just have to drag you back inside and prove to you that age has nothin’ to do with any of the important things. Is that what you want?” Vivian had flushed, waved her red-nailed fingers, and trounced down the steps ahead of him.

Yes, trounced. She was one of the few women he knew who could trounce and look good doing it.

So what the Sam Hill was he doing sending her away again?

Joe thrust the old shovel deep into the soil of his yard at Space #9. He’d worked this ground every year since he’d moved in, and after all this time, golf-ball-sized rocks still worked their way up to the surface. And the older he got, the more he felt the jarring clunk of spade versus stone all the way up into his shoulders. Sometimes, after a long day spent in his garden, he’d have to sit just, waiting for feeling to come back into his hands.

Today, between the bugs, and the stones, and the hollow place Vivian always left behind, he didn’t know how much more he had in him. He leaned the shovel against the fence and picked up his hand trowel instead. He’d take it easy today; let his heart recover a bit.

“Morning, Joe!” It was Patti next door, slipping outside ahead of her husband to set up a chair for him. Richard, wedging his walker against the screen door, ambled out, his slow, shuffling steps a testimony to his new determination to make life a little easier for his saint of a wife. Joe was glad. He didn’t like to see a woman looking old before her time, and up until that Willow Goodhope got ahold of her, Patti Davis looked plum used up. Now, between her new hairstyle and the way her husband looked at her these days, the woman seemed to have come more than a few steps back from the grave.

Willow Goodhope. He’d met her briefly when she was out front whispering with the Davis boy last month. She’d been baking; he could tell. She smelled like boysenberry pie.

Now there was a woman with a secret or two. Joe knew it like he knew the color of his own skin. Secrets. They were like ghosts; always hovering, always slipping in and around the way of things, whispering nonsense in the ears of those who could hear them.

And Joe could hear them, yes, indeed.

In fact, that girl’s secrets were so busy keeping her busy that Joe was hesitant to get in the way. It wasn’t like him to ignore a new neighbor; not that there were many new neighbors in The Coach House Trailer Park. As Kathy Kekoa liked to say, “This is the final parking lot of life. We’re all just sitting here, waiting our turn. This is where we’ve come to die.”

Well, Joe knew that to be true, and he was having a hard time figuring out what that girl was doing here. And apparently, Richard Davis was trying to figure things out, too. Richard had been on his front porch nearly every day since she moved in. Joe might be old, but he wasn’t deaf, and he could hear the discussions between the man and his wife. Richard wanted Ivan, their son, to strike up a relationship with the girl, but Ivan Davis was dead-set on just being friends. His heart belonged to another, and Joe got the sneaking suspicion that the Goodhope girl’s heart wasn’t as untethered as she’d like everyone to believe.

The way he figured it, she was hiding something over there in her little cottage. Or hiding from something. He just didn’t know that he wanted to get all caught up in that kind of drama, not at his age, anyhow. A damsel in distress was more than he could resist, but it was also more trouble than he needed right now. As long as he didn’t get too curious, he could just keep to himself, plant his spring garden, play games with Vivian, and live out his days in this parking lot at the end of the road of life.

“When you gonna plant yourself a little vegetable garden, Miss Patti?” he called out, waving his hand-trowel over the fence at her. The woman loved to talk about plants—she was always asking him what he had growing—and he kept offering to help her put a few tomato plants or collard greens in the ground on her side of the fence. Now that was the kind of helping he was happy to give.

“You know, Joe,” Patti replied, leaning against the rail at the top of her steps. “I was actually thinking that it might be good for both me and Richard to do something about this place. I know we could use the exercise and sunshine. I just…” She faltered, and Joe thought he understood why. It was always hard to start something new, but he nodded reassuringly, ready to pull out the stops to convince her to give it a go.

“Hello, beautiful people,” a voice called out from behind him.

He realized, then, that Patti hadn’t faltered at all. She’d been distracted by a red-haired firefly flitting their way, surrounded by her whirlwind of secrets.

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Chapter 2

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loblolly pine

A laugh the size of a Loblolly Pine…

Willow Goodhope stopped at the fence-line between Spaces #9 and #10, speaking to everyone collectively. “Did you all know that Joy is my middle name?”

“Is it?” Patti was smiling like she’d just swallowed a glass of sunshine, and Joe eyed her, still marveling at the changes in the woman.

Willow let out a laugh the size of a Loblolly Pine tree, and he shook his head, not even trying to hold back his own smile. Boy, that woman could laugh!

“Not legally, no. It’s really Eve. But today, I’m going to imagine that it’s Joy, and see what happens to me. Don’t you think calling something by a new name can turn the world inside out?”

“Speakin’ of names, I hear you gone and named that little shanty o’ yours.” Joe waved his trowel in the air to shoo off a pesky fly.

“That I did, Joe. Elderberry Croft. Isn’t that perfect? I named it after the little elderberry tree growing by the stream. Have you seen it?”

“No, I can’t say that I have. One of these days, maybe I’ll swing by and take a peek.”

“Oh yes, do! And speaking of new names,” she continued, picking up the conversation where they’d veered off. “Does anyone know what my little house was called before I moved in?”

“Child, that little house o’ yours was a hotbed of iniquity back when The Coach House was havin’ its heyday on the stagecoach line. I don’t think you really want to know what it used to be called. Let’s just say, your little love shack saw its share of pretty lights long before you moved in; red ones.” Joe chuckled, hoping to take the snagged edges off his gritty words, not sure exactly why he tossed them out there like that.

But Willow only guffawed again. “I know! I look around at those four walls in there and praise the Lord that they have a thick layer of paint over them, separating me from anything they’ve seen.”

Joe shook his head. “No amount of paint could wipe that kind of sin clean. At least John Bishop was a prayin’ man; I know that for a fact.”

“Well, did he name it?” Willow leaned over the fence toward him.

“Listen, Miss Willow. Men don’t name their houses. That’s a woman thing. Right, Richard?” Joe rocked back on his heels and thrust a chin toward his neighbor.

“Good morning, Willow.” Richard spoke kindly, making Joe shake his head again. If he didn’t know any better, he’d say that man was smitten. “Joe’s right. This is Space #10. Joe’s place is #9. You’re in Space #12.”

“Yep. John Bishop lived and died there, and never called it anything but Space #12,” Joe confirmed.

“What?” Willow’s eyes went all big and round at his words, and he had the decency to feel remorse. What was he thinking, letting something that morbid slip out of his mouth?

“He didn’t die in your house, Willow.” Patti crossed her arms and shot a glare at Joe.

“Well, I guess that’s not such a bad thing, dying in one’s home,” Willow surprised them all by saying. “I mean, if I had the choice of where I’d want to be when I took my final breath here on earth, I think I’d want it to be in my own bed, too.”

“Well, now, there’s the first bit of sense I’ve heard come out of your mouth today, child. You keep talkin’ and I bet you’ll have friends all over this retreat.” Joe always called The Coach House Trailer Park a retreat. ‘Park’ made it sound like they were on some kind of playground, and he’d had a bad experience in the neighborhood park when he was growing up, being the only colored boy on the swings. But he did think of this place as his retreat, as his place to while away the days in his garden, watching the changing seasons, and entertaining the likes of Vivian.

Vivian. He let the sound of her name swirl around inside his head. Who-ee! That woman! He could only handle so much of her in one setting, but handle her, he did. His hands were itching for her right now, and he squeezed the handle of the trowel, feeling the grit of dirt in the creases of his palm, and in the more tender skin between his fingers.

“Well,” Willow’s voice drew him back to the moment they were in. “What was he like? And how did he die? Where?”

Richard cleared his throat, and Joe let him tell the story. “John lived in your place for nearly thirty years. He was like a fixture here. In fact, he was already living here when the Swifts bought the park. There was always some kind of project of his out on the patio; a radiator, an old refrigerator he was taking apart or putting back together. But if you ever needed help getting your car started, or your water heater repaired, John was the man to call. He didn’t say much, but he always had his hands busy doing something.”

“Remember that awful carousel horse he found?” Patti shook her head. “He thought he’d stumbled across a treasure because so many people were collecting them for a while. But that thing was terrifying! A horse with fangs? It’s no wonder the carousel owner tossed it He probably had parents trying to sue him for giving their kids nightmares.”

Joe chuckled, nodding. “That was truly a demon-horse, Miss Willow. You’d be walkin’ along, mindin’ your own business, carryin’ your laundry down the way, when all of a sudden, you’d feel something watchin’ you, something’ breathin’ down  your neck. Sure, it stood still as a statue up there under that eucalyptus, but there was no doubt whose eyes were followin’ you. Demon horse. Wasn’t it, Richard?”

Richard nodded and continued his story. “John was a good man, but he usually just kept to himself if no one needed him. It was Doc, the fellow that lives over the garage up front, who noticed John’s absence after not seeing his car parked out front for three or four days.”

“Poor thing. Myra—you’ve met Myra, haven’t you?—started calling all the local hospitals looking for him. When a week had passed, Doc insisted that Eddie call the police.” Patti said it with the emphasis on po, then nodded at her husband, indicating that he take over again.

“They found him that same day. He was in his car parked at a turnout up the mountain road a bit. The police said it looked like he’d pulled over to rest and just never woke up. No evidence of foul play.”

The Goodhope girl chewed on her lip as she listened to them, and Joe watched her, appreciating the way she was paying such close attention, as though she really cared about what had happened to the dead man.

“But all alone like that?” Her voice came out small, tight. “Did anyone come for his things? Any family?”

“No. The man never married. He had no one that any of us knew of. I think we were the closest thing he had to a family, those of us here.” Patti shook her head. “Eddie said there wasn’t even anyone on his rental agreement to notify.”

“Did you—was there a service?” Willow actually looked like she might be ready to cry.

“Oh, honey. They don’t do services for folks like John. He had no one. There was no one to plan one.” Patti smiled gently as she reiterated her own words.

“So…what did they do with him? With his body? I—I’ve just never really thought about it before.” Joe could see the inner workings of her head trying to line up with her heart, and her ghosts were respectfully silent.

“In the old days, they called it a pauper’s burial. In some places they still do, certainly back home where I’m from. But here, well, I think they’ve gone all politically correct and call it a county burial or a state burial or some such nonsense. But there’s a spot in most cemeteries allotted for penniless folk or those without kin, like John Bishop was. It’s a perfectly respectable place, Miss Willow. Now don’t you be worryin’ yourself over him. He’s doin’ just fine where he’s at these days. Probably busy keepin’ the good Lord’s fleet of Cadillacs runnin’ for him.”

She stood silent for so long that Joe felt the need to change the subject. “I’ve been meanin’ to compliment you on your place, by the by. You sure have made it out to be quite an eyeful. From one gardener to another, I’m impressed.”

“Thank you, Joe. Coming from you, that’s a high compliment.” Willow dropped into a quick curtsey. “And now I must be off. I just wanted to stop and say ‘hi’ to all of you. Have a wonderful day!” And with that, the girl flitted away, her little comet-tail of shadows swishing after her.

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Chapter 3

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Elderberry Apple Crumb Pie

Joe was putting the last of his supper dishes away when there was a light tapping at the front door. He glanced up at the clock on the wall above his sofa; he had to call Vivian in exactly thirteen minutes. Eight o’clock, every night. That was their arrangement. If he didn’t call her, she got worried and started calling him, then his sisters, then his nieces and nephews, and pretty soon the whole family was up in arms about him lying dead on the floor in his underwear, with no one around to cover up his sorry backside.

Well, whoever it was would just have to make it quick. He pulled open the door to find Willow Goodhope standing on his front stoop. “Well, good evenin’, Miss Willow. What brings you to my door tonight?” He wouldn’t have been more surprised if it had been Vivien herself.

“I brought you something. I wanted to thank you for telling me about John Bishop today. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about him, about how he made Elderberry Croft his home before it was mine.”

“Well, goodness, child. What does that have to do with me?” In her arms she held a square twig basket with a cloth draped over the top, but the aroma wafting into his living room made him think of Mama on baking day. Whatever she had in her basket was fresh out of the oven.

“I don’t know, really. I was feeling so joyful earlier today, even the tale of that poor man didn’t get me down too much. But once I was all settled in for the night, I couldn’t stop thinking about him; that he died alone. No one even waved goodbye as he passed from this life into the next.” Her eyes glistened with emotion as she spoke, and Joe felt his defenses beginning to crumble. “I started making him a pie before I realized I’d have to eat it all by myself. Then I thought of you, and I became certain that this pie was actually for you, not John. So,” Her eyebrows rose in question. “I was wondering if you might want to take a few minutes and celebrate his life with me. Over this.” She held up her basket.

Joe paused incrementally, but it was enough for her to notice. “Oh dear. I’m interrupting your evening, aren’t I? I didn’t even ask if you were busy. Here. For you.” She thrust the basket toward him, and when he took it, she smoothed the hair away from her face in a nervous gesture. “I’ll check in with you tomorrow, okay?”

“No, no, Missy. You come on in. I just have to make a quick phone call, lest the alarm bells go off all over Los Angeles, and my over-zealous family members start rumors about me breathin’ my last.” He grinned and stepped back from the door. “Make yourself comfy. I’ll be quick.” Carrying the basket to the round captain’s table where he ate most of his meals, he set it down in the middle of the marquetry checkerboard top. Picking up his cordless telephone, he dialed Vivian’s number and waited for her husky answer.

When he reached her answering machine, he was actually relieved; still trying to figure out how he was going to explain that he couldn’t talk with her because he had another woman waiting for him on his sofa.

“Vivian, honey, I have a neighbor over here needin’ my time right now. I’ll call you when we’re through. No later than nine, I promise.” That should smooth her ruffled feathers a little, although he knew she wouldn’t be happy about having to wait. He could picture her now, fluffing her hair and putting on the last coat of lipstick for the day. She liked to look her best when she called him; she said it made her feel like there was less distance between them when she gussied herself up for him. He laughed when she first told him so, but she’d set him straight.

“When I’m slouching around in my pajamas and hair-rollers, I don’t want to talk to anyone, Joe. But when I look good, I love imagining you sitting across the table from me, appreciating every ounce of my effort.” Well, in a way, it made sense to him. He never left the house, not even to garden, without a clean pair of socks and underwear on, because it made him stand up a little straighter and feel a little more like the gentleman his mama always said he was.

As he hung up, he eyed the girl sitting with her legs crossed, as prim as a schoolteacher, flipping through one of the TV Guides from his coffee table. She’d taken off her green hooded cape and laid it over the arm of the sofa. Her hair reminded him of drying tobacco leaves, and her skin seemed almost translucent, so that if he looked closely, he might be able to make out the striations of the muscles beneath her flesh. When she raised her eyes to meet his, however, he caught a glimpse of the shadows lurking there, of the veil covering the truth behind them. On second thought, there was nothing see-through about this creature sitting in his house, and he still wasn’t so sure about keeping company with the likes of her. Or her ghosts.

“So, Miss Willow, is it time to celebrate?” She leapt up and crossed to the table, pulling the cloth back to reveal the contents of the basket she’d brought.

A golden-crusted pie, the edges rippled and thick, oozing with deep red syrup from the leaf-shaped slits in the top shell. This was no store-bought bakery item; this was the real deal, and so fresh it was still hot enough to warm his hands over.

“What have you gone and made there?”

“Have you ever had elderberry apple pie, Joe? I hope not, because this is one of my specialties, and I want it to be a first for you.” The shadows slipped away, unable to hold their ground in her excitement.

“I’ve had apple pie. And I’ve had elderberry pie when I was just a boy. But I don’t believe I’ve ever had the two combined. So I suppose it’s your lucky night, Miss Willow.”

“Ha! I think it’s your lucky night!” Willow released her laugh, startling him all over again, and making him chuckle in response. Why could he not wrap his head around her? She seemed part timid child, part wild woman, and he couldn’t find a comfortable place to situate himself between the extremes. She pulled a knife and a pie-server from the basket and waved them in his direction. “Find us some plates and forks, Joe. I’m serving it up.”

He eyed her with hooded lids. “There’s no poison in that, or any other such drug, is there? You come over here talkin’ about dead men, and now you’re tryin’ to feed me pie. I don’t really know you very well, Miss Willow. What if you’re tryin’ to kidnap me? Or rob me? Or put me into an everlastin’ sleep? Don’t you read your fairy tales?”

She laughed again and promised she’d take the first bite.

“I still have my doubts about you,” he said. It sounded like a joke, but he meant every word. “For all I know, you’re one of those black widows. Except you’re not black, and I don’t believe you’re yet a widow.”

The light in her eyes flickered, her smile faltered, and her shoulders drooped slowly, like he’d just poked a tiny hole in her. She blinked a few times, then began methodically cutting the pie, releasing a fresh burst of sweet-tart aroma into the air. Joe, realizing he’d inadvertently slipped into dangerous territory, decided that since he was there already, he might as well find out what he was up against.

“So am I correct in assumin’ you’re not a widow?” He kept his voice low, soothing, like a papa would speak to his worried little girl.

Willow stilled, her hand holding the server poised in mid-scoop. Then she lifted eyes filled with emptiness to his. “You are correct, Joe. I am not a widow.” But all around her the air breathed with tangled emotions and subtle contradictions.

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Chapter 4

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Western-Union-telegram

Well, well, well. Two can play the game of stubborn, Miss Willow. “Then are you married?”

“Joe,” she lifted a generous slice of pie from the dish. “If you don’t bring me your plate, I’ll have to put this directly into your hand, and although it might taste just as delicious that way, I guarantee it will be a whole lot messier.” The look she gave him was kind, but set, assuring him the conversation about her marital status was over. Joe crossed to the cupboard and brought down two plates, then studied her as she dished them up.

“I have ice cream,” he finally spoke. It was the closest to an apology he was willing to give. Here this little thing wanted to come over here and impose on his private life, but when it came time for turn-about, she wasn’t up for letting him in the front door. He pulled the carton of vanilla from his freezer and dropped a scoop on each plate. “So are you plannin’ on givin’ a speech for John before we eat?”

Willow’s relief at the change of subject was evident, and he took note of the deep breath that seemed to inflate her once again, bringing her shoulders and her chin back up. “Nope. No speeches from me. Just pie. But I have a question for you.”

“Shoot,” Joe nodded, and waved his fork in the direction of the couch, indicating she should sit again. He needed a little distance between them in order to keep his head on straight.

Her words slipped out, haltingly at first. “I…I just wondered why people here at The Coach House didn’t have some kind of…memorial for him. A barbecue, or something. I mean, everyone needs to be acknowledged, in living and in dying.”

“Well, now,” he said, adjusting his thoughts to the direction of her question. “I don’t know. I guess no one thought to take it on.” He shrugged like a teenager, and took his first bite of pie.

His knees actually got weak as the tangy-sweet fruit pastry filled his mouth, making the muscles of his jaw clench. The crust was dense and flaky at the same time, and the apples were cooked just the way he liked them; sliced thinly and sautéed in butter and cinnamon. The elderberries gave it a wild taste, reminding him of the endless days of summer when he was a boy. He pulled one of the tall stools out from the table and sank into it, savoring the combination of flavors on his tongue.

“Do you know, I used to live next door to a farmer named McGregor. Just like that Peter Cottontail, Miss Willow. Me and my little sisters used to steal fruit from the McGregor’s boysenberry vines. Every once in a while, he’d come upon us, our fingers sticky and our mouths dyed purple.” He chuckled at the memory. “In hind sight, I don’t ever remember him bein’ too angry. In fact, it seems to me that he must have let it slide more often than not. He was always lookin’ out for Mama; that man was. He bought bread and pies from her every time she baked.” He paused, remembering more. “You know, now that I think on it, she used to buy her fruit from him, then he’d pay her double that for a pie or two.”

“He sounds like a good neighbor.” Willow was taking small bites, attentive to his every word. She didn’t ask him about his papa, and for that he was glad. It still gave him a gut-ache when he thought back on the day his mama received her Western Union telegram. She’d held on to his narrow, eight-year-old shoulders as though they could handle the weight of a woman’s broken heart. He’d stayed upright until she pulled herself together enough to make dinner, then he’d gone outside and crumpled on the ground beside his papa’s truck. It took all night and half the next morning before he was able to come to grips with the fact that he was now the man of the house. It was McGregor who found him there, who offered him a hand up, his first cup of black coffee, and a ham sandwich made on Mama’s bread.

“Yes, I can say, in all sincerity, that McGregor was a good neighbor. I remember this one time, when all three of my little sisters were sick with some terrible cough that wouldn’t stop; that man gave Mama a ride to the hospital in the middle of the night. I thought those girls were goners, but we didn’t have the money for a doctor. I suppose he must have paid for it himself.” He took another bite. “Lordy, Willow Goodhope! This pie’s bringin’ back all kinds of memories. There was this other neighbor who looked out for our family, too, especially us kids. Her name was Delphinium Dupple. Now what kind of mother would name her poor child Delphinium Dupple?”

“Maybe she didn’t,” Willow replied. “Maybe your Delphinium had a nice, benign last name, but then married a man named Dupple. There’s no reasoning with love, you know.”

“Well, you’re dead right about love. But Delphinium carried that name around with her from the day she was born. She never married, and she wasn’t ashamed to say so. But let me tell you, she was the best babysitter we ever had growin’ up. Mama worked evenins’ at a local diner, and Granny Didi, as we called her, she’d feed us our supper, make sure we had our clothes lined up for school the next mornin’, and read us into oblivion every night.”

“What did she read to you?” Willow had finished her dessert and sat back into the corner of the faded brown velour sofa, the empty plate on her lap.

“Mostly Bible stories. She had this enormous illustrated version with pictures a kid could get lost in. But sometimes she told us fairy tales and ghost stories, mostly just on nights we didn’t have to get up for school the next day. One of us was always too spooked to fall asleep after that.” He let himself sink into the memory for a moment, the rich timbre of Granny Didi’s voice rippling through him. “She had the best way of tellin’ those ghost stories. Her voice would get all low and rounded out, like she was sittin’ in a whiskey barrel. Makes my skin tingle just thinkin’ about the sound.”

“What happened to her?”

“You know, I can’t quite recall. I mean, I’m certain she’s dead and gone by now, but I don’t really know. I should call my sisters, see if they know. Jillian was especially close to her bein’ the youngest and all.” He took another bite, closing his eyes as he chewed, trying to remember. Like a gentle whisper, it came back to him, and he opened his eyes slowly.

“She was there, at Mama’s funeral. I’d all but forgotten that. She came over and wrapped her molasses arms around me, and told me she was proud of me like I was her own grandson.” He waved his fork at her. “You know, that’s a sweet memory, Miss Willow. Thank you for bringin’ it to mind.”

“I just brought you pie, Joe.” Willow’s laugh wasn’t nearly so loud as usual, but it came from somewhere deep inside, as though she meant it. “It’s what neighbors do, isn’t it? Looking out for each other. Being family to each other when there isn’t any other.”

“Hm. Are we still talkin’ about my memories, or are we back to celebratin’ John Bishop?” Joe pressed his fork into the last crumbs on his plate, leaving none of the goodness uneaten. “Or are we talkin’ about you and me now?”

Willow nodded, her eyes dropping to her hands where they held her own empty plate. “Thank you for letting me in tonight, Joe. I really needed the company.” She stood and carried her dish to the sink.

“Leave that, Miss Willow. I’ll take care of it in a bit.” He felt the pull of her, and it reminded him of what he saw in Richard Davis’s eyes when he watched her from his front porch. It wasn’t lust or wanting in a carnal way; but an echo in the bone of something needful in her that stirred up the deep places in him.

“I’m much better now. I’m heading home so you can make your phone call to that friend of yours.” She scooped up her cape and swirled it around her shoulders in one deft move, then retrieved her basket, placing the remaining pie on the counter.

“Friend? Vivien?” Joe guffawed. “That woman is no friend. That woman is my wife.”

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Chapter 5

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Willow's Fingerless Gloves

The look on Willow’s face was priceless. It wasn’t that he didn’t want anyone knowing about Vivien. It was just easier not to have to explain her to folks. But the girl stood there, just inside his door, looking at him with those big, bold eyes.

“It’s a long story, child, and one for another day. If I don’t give the lovely Vivien a call before nine o’clock, I’m goin’ to hear no end to my neglect, havin’ put her off already. So scoot on home, now.”

“I just don’t understand. Why on earth do the two of you live such a long way apart when you’re married?”

“It’s like you said. There’s no reasonin’ in love, is there?”

“No, I guess not.” She opened the door, then turned back to look up at him. “But you will explain it to me, won’t you? When can I come back?”

“Willow Goodhope, you’d talk a cat out of his skin with those eyes of yours. Listen. I’ve seen you out and about in the early mornin’ hours. You want to know about my Vivien? You come over tomorrow mornin’ ‘round eight. I’ll have the griddle fired up and the coffee on. What will you be bringin’?”

Willow grinned smugly. “I’ll surprise you.” Then she fluttered out the door, the hem of her cape rippling as though the shadows were jockeying for position behind her.

“Don’t you come back empty-handed, you hear?” he called after her. “I won’t let you in!”

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Now here it was, five minutes before eight, and his home smelled like breakfast, the gurgle of the coffee pot making funky jazz harmonies with the sizzle of bacon and eggs. His mouth watered with anticipation for the food he’d be sharing with Willow, while his mind mulled over the words he’d be sharing with her, too.

There she was, making her way up the drive toward his trailer. He watched her from the kitchen window until she turned out of sight into his gate. Before she could knock, he was there, opening his home to her once again.

“I hope you’re hungry, Willow Goodhope of Elderberry Croft.” He smiled at her pink-tipped nose and bright eyes, the chill of the March morning making her skin glow.

“Good morning, Joe. In fact, I’m starving! I’ve been up too long already. I had a cup of coffee first thing, because that’s just my morning ritual. Coffee with Jesus. Or was it two cups? Anyway, then I started baking and that really made me hungry, but I wanted to save my appetite, so I had another cup of coffee instead. I think I might start bouncing off the walls if I don’t get some food in my stomach soon!” The words poured out of her in a rush, and Joe stepped back under the barrage.

“Glory be, child! Maybe you’d better go back outside and run around the block a few times. That’s what Mama always did when we got ants in our pants indoors.”

Willow laughed, set the basket she carried—the same one she’d brought the pie in last night—on the table, and unwrapped the heavy wool scarf looped around her neck. Her cardigan was thick, with big brass buttons, and she wore fingerless gloves on her hands. “I like your socks,” he teased, pointing with a thrust of his chin. She held them up and wiggled her fingers in the air.

“I get claustrophobic when I wear gloves. Isn’t that silly? But I kinda go into a panic. My skin starts itching, and my ears ring a little, then I start to get light-headed. Can’t wear them. But these? They’re perfect for me. And when my fingers get cold, I have these lovely thingies!” She reached into a pocket and pulled out a little square beanbag. “They’re full of wild rice, lavender, and elderberry flowers. I just pop it into the microwave before I go outside, and drop one in each of my pockets. Then, when I need to warm up my hands, I do this—” She shoved her hands into her pockets to demonstrate. “And voila! Toasty warm! You want to feel one? They’re still warm from at least fifteen minutes ago, and they smell heavenly!”

“Good Lord. You sit your backside down right now. Come on. Sit.” Joe practically pushed her into one of the stools. “You’re making me nervous!” He’d already set the table with plates, silverware, water glasses, and coffee cups, but he reached over and snatched up the mug from in front of her. “No more coffee for you. At least not until you get yourself together a bit. And take those things off your hands. This isn’t some Victorian tea party.”

Willow made a funny face at him, then took a deep breath as she peeled off the red gloves. “Maybe it’s more of a tea party than you thought! Look what I brought!” She whipped the cloth off the basket. “Scones and leftover elderberry filling from your pie!”

Joe chuckled when he saw them. “Scones, huh? All I see is some high-falutin’ biscuits, Miss Willow. But they sure smell nice. Thank you for bringin’ them.” Then he gave her a stern look. “Are you ready to settle down? I’m a man who likes to spend time with his food. I don’t need the accompaniment of conversation; especially not with a scatter-brained chatterbox like yourself this mornin’. It’s not good for my digestion.”

“Okay. I’m calm. Sorry. Maybe it’s not just the caffeine. Maybe it’s the spring air and the promise of a good story.” She sat forward and clapped her hands. “I can’t wait to hear about you and Vivien!”

“Well, wait you must, because I plan to enjoy my breakfast first. Besides, I think it will do you some good to practice a little patience and self-control.” Joe sat down across the table from her and reached for one of her hands, then bowed his head, not waiting to see if she understood his intentions. He’d learned long ago that explaining things like thanking the good Lord for His daily provision usually just took up praying time. No one had yet refused to at least bow their heads alongside him. He was pleased to hear her murmured ‘amen’ following his.

Willow finished her first plateful, then begged for her coffee cup back. “Come on, Joe. I can’t eat scones without coffee. I mean, biscuits. So do you like them?” She pointed at the golden pastry on his plate. “They’re made with elderberry flowers.”

“You and that elderberry tree.” Joe frowned. “Is that your tree spirit, or somethin’?”

Willow threw back her head and laughed, obviously delighted by the idea. “Well, if I believed in such things, then I’d say absolutely, yes.” She circled her redeemed mug with both hands, and held it out for him to fill. “But the truth is this. I grew up in a part of Oregon where elderberry trees are everywhere. My childhood sounds a little like yours, in fact. We weren’t what people considered well-off, if you know what I mean, but there was always something delicious to eat in our home. My mom used to take me out into the woods and, depending on the seasons, we’d find all kinds of things to add to our table. Have you ever had stinging nettle pasta? Or cattail cobs?”

Joe was beginning to understand the wild thing he saw in her. She continued. “They’re not really cobs, but when the cattails first formed their buds, Mom used to steam them, and we’d eat them like miniature corn on the cob. In fact, when I was little, I thought that’s what was in those cans of fancy mini-corn on the shelves in the grocery store.”

“You don’t say.”

“And everywhere we went, there were elderberry trees. But the elderberry didn’t just provide for us in one season. That tree is a tree of life, Joe; the ultimate giving tree. In Spring, we made bug spray out of the young leaves. It flowers from spring through early summer, and there’s so much you can do with elder flowers. The fragrance is almost intoxicating and there’s nothing better than to read or nap under those trees in the heat of the day.” She selected a scone out of the basket, slathered it with butter and some of the tart fruit filling, and took a bite, chewing it slowly. “Shade and berries in the late summer and on into winter, pithy wood for tinder in the winter and early spring. Everything about that tree is beneficial, if used in the right way.”

She ate a few more bites while Joe watched and waited. There was something about her voice that was a little intoxicating, too, and he felt like he could listen to her talk all morning. “So when I came here last December, looking for a place to stay, and I found that rogue elderberry tree growing by the little creek, I fell in love with the place. It was like God put a mark on Elderberry Croft, an X on a treasure map. He knew I needed something that He alone could give me, some kind of evidence that He cared where I ended up.” Her voice had dropped so low Joe had to lean in a little to hear. Then she fell silent altogether.

“Where is your family, Willow Goodhope?” It was a broad question, one that left her lots of room to answer.

“My mother passed away when I was fifteen.” She smiled warmly, clearly having come to terms with her loss long ago. “She died as she lived, at peace. She had cancer, and we didn’t know until it was too late. My dad survived that by sinking into his work for a while. I thought I’d lost him, too, but then he came around, and we became the best of friends. He’s still alive and kicking, but he lives in a 55-plus community. I see him fairly often; almost every Sunday after church.” Her smile brightened as she spoke about her father, and Joe nodded with satisfaction. It was good to hear a girl speak highly of her daddy.

“But here I’ve been talking about me, and I want to know about you, Joe. And Vivien. Your wife!” She shook her head and snorted. “I still can hardly believe it.”

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Chapter 6

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Vivien's Belvedere

Joe told her about how he’d stayed single on into his early sixties, taking care of his little sisters after their mother passed away, making sure that they were provided for. He put Mona through college, then Beatrice. They both became teachers in the public school system. When it came time for Jillian to go to school, she got married instead, and Joe paid for her wedding after approving of her young man.

“That’s a lot of sacrifice on your part,” Willow stated.

“Sacrifice was what my mama did after my papa didn’t come home from the war. I just made sure all her hard work wasn’t for naught.” When he promised Mama he’d look after the girls, he never thought twice about doing otherwise.

“But when I met Vivien, my whole world shook like a California earthquake. That woman pulled her smokin’ vehicle onto my auto repair lot, threw open her door before the engine had completely died, and started hollerin’ such things as my ears had never heard come out of the mouth of a woman before. I stood there, my own mouth open as my ears filled with that vile, and I knew I had to rescue her from herself. But not before I rescued her car. It was a cherry 1955 Plymouth Belvedere, its baby blue and white body in perfect condition. But I had a feelin’ if she’d had a baseball bat in her hands, that vehicle would have seen its last day.” He guffawed at the memory, but his heart beat a little faster inside the walls of his chest as he recalled her long brown legs sticking out of her short maroon miniskirt, her arms flailing in the air, bracelets all a-jingling. “To this day, my Vivien could out-curse a sailor, but it’s a rare occurrence, and for that I’m glad. She terrified me and captivated me all at the same time. I was a goner when she bent over, yanked off one of her high heels, and threw it at the windshield of that poor car.” He leaned back in his chair, and grinned at Willow across the table.

“I got to play Prince Charmin’ that day. After I helped her hobble into the front office and gave her a glass of water, I went back out and located her shoe. Then I knelt down in front of her, and cuppin’ her lovely leg in my hand, I slipped the shoe back on her foot, all the while, never takin’ my eyes off her face.” With his hands, he demonstrated his actions. “When she smiled, and said, ‘So this is where Prince Charmin’ works,’ I knew she felt the same immediate attraction.”

“Oh, Joe. That’s so romantic! So you were married and lived happily ever after, right? Except that you lived happily ever after apart.”

“Not quite, Miss Willow.” Joe stood up and began clearing the dishes, needing to stretch his legs, and keep his achingly empty hands busy. Thinking of Vivien always made them feel that way. Willow leapt up, too, and the two of them worked together to put the kitchen back in order. “Vivien had a husband when I met her. And three children by him, to boot. But he’d run out on her a month before we met, leavin’ her with the three kids, less than one month’s paycheck, and a car that couldn’t make it around the block more than twice without catchin’ fire under the hood.”

“Well, no wonder she was unloading on it.” Willow chuckled, drying the dishes Joe washed with the towel he’d handed her.

“It took the police nearly six years to locate Bob Harper, and after they did, it took another 3 years to convince the courts that she didn’t owe him a dime. So instead of givin’ in to temptation, I moved out here, far enough away that I wouldn’t be knockin’ on her door when my need for her got so bad I couldn’t hardly stand it, but still close enough to her that if she needed me, I could be there for her, even if it was just over the phone. When the day came that she was a free woman, I got in my car—that same one parked out there under the carport—and I drove straight to her job at the DMV. I didn’t bother callin’ ahead. I’d waited long enough. I pulled her up out of her seat, nearly gettin’ myself arrested for it, and hauled her down to the courthouse, cursin’ and hollerin’ about how no woman in their right mind would marry a caveman like me.” He shot her a cocky grin. “Funny thing; when we stood before the judge, she got all weepy and tender, and she said ‘yes’ to every question he asked us. We were married that day, she kissed me like there might never be a tomorrow, and I got her back to her job three days later, after makin’ sure she had no more doubts about being my wife.”

“Oh, my,” Willow sighed, dramatically fanning herself with the dishtowel.

“Oh, yes.” Joe nodded, still quite proud of the way he’d handled everything that day.  “Mona stepped in to look after Vivien’s children, and I brought her here for the first time nearly ten years ago now. We talked about our future and realized that regardless of our marital status, Vivien was in no condition to move out here with me—not with three teenagers still under her roof—nor was I prepared, after livin’ my whole life as a single man, to take on a ready-made family. I love those kids, mind you, but I know how I would have felt if some man had stepped into my life when I was a teenager. No thank you. Especially not someone who knows nothin’ about raisin’ kids.” He turned around and leaned against the counter, pressing both palms down on the cool surface on either side of him. She returned to the stool she’d vacated to help him, and poured herself another cup of coffee. He rolled his eyes when he saw the face she made with the first sip. It had been sitting on the hot plate too long, and Joe knew it must taste like burnt mud.

“So, she comes out here when she can, mostly weekends, and I head that way once or twice a week. It works for us, at least for now. There may come a time when things change, and it may come sooner than later with the last of her kids gettin’ ready to graduate from high school this year. I’d love to have her here with me every day, but I sure do cherish the mornins’ I wake up with her in my arms. I never thought I’d have me a wife; I’d accepted that my lot in life was to take care of the women God had given me in my mother and three sisters. So now that he’s given me the go-ahead with Vivien Harper-Sanderson, I don’t begrudge a single moment I get with her, nor do I bemoan the moments I don’t.”

“Ten years, Joe.” He didn’t know if Willow was still struggling to understand, or just letting it sink in. She had her chin resting in her cupped palms, but when he continued, her eyes closed, as though to shut his words out.

“There’s nothin’ more painfully sweet than missin’ someone you love.”

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Chapter 7

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Ghosts of the past 

The silence that stretched between them was suddenly filled with unspoken words, and it took everything in him not to look away from her obvious misery. “Child, you got to unload some of your ghosts. I believe you’re listenin’ a little too closely to the lies of the devil in that pretty little head of yours.” He watched for a reaction from her, but when she didn’t stop him, he continued. “I don’t know who hurt you, Miss Willow, or what you’re hidin’ from over in that little croft of yours, but I can tell you this. I’ve learned a thing or two in my life, and believe me when I say that livin’ with regrets isn’t livin’ at all.”

Willow opened her eyes, and to his dismay, her tears began to fall. “Well, Joe, sometimes we don’t choose our regrets. Sometimes regrets choose us, and there’s not a thing we can do about it.” Her voice rose like she was getting all fired up, but he didn’t think she was angry at him. “I’m not listening to the devil, even if he is hollering at me half the time. I’m trying to stay tuned to God’s voice, but sometimes even his is hard to hear. When I moved here, I made a deal with him. I told him that on the days I couldn’t hear him, I’d be out looking for someone else to listen to, someone else who needed lifting up. Last night, when I came here, it was because I couldn’t hear God, Joe. I even went outside to the elderberry tree he put there for me, and I leaned into it, begging him to wrap his arms around me, to soothe my spirit. He didn’t. Not then and there, anyway. Instead, he put you on my heart.” She used the cuff of her sweater to dab at the moisture on her cheeks. “He helped me remember the way you looked when I dropped by yesterday morning. You seemed a little beat up. Hollowed out. Needing some fortification. I thought the pie was for John Bishop when I put it in the oven, but when I pulled it out, it had your name on it.”

Joe dropped his chin to his chest and let out a long breath. How could he help this girl? Mama always said that the good Lord only wanted vessels. And empty ones at that, empty vessels that he could fill. Well, I have nothin’, Lord. I have nothin’ to give her.

He opened his mouth to say so, and the words that slipped out were a surprise even to him. “Willow Goodhope, the good Lord may not tell you what you want to hear about you, but I can see now that I have clearly misjudged you and your blessed ears. Your visit last night was just what this old man needed. I was missin’ my Vivien somethin’ fierce, and I was gettin’ ready to draw some lines that I knew she couldn’t keep from crossin’ and that wouldn’t have been fair to her. You, and your pie, sweepin’ in here along with your ghosts, gave me somethin’ else to think about. Someone else, besides ugly ol’ me. I haven’t thought of Farmer McGregor in eons. And Granny Didi? Last night I lay in bed thankin’ the good Lord for the angels he placed all around me throughout my life. I’ll have you know that your name, Willow Goodhope, came up in that conversation.” He pushed away from the counter and crossed the room to the table. He didn’t touch her; she seemed fragile, almost see-through again. But he looked her in the eye and said, “But before you go gettin’ a big head or anythin’ like that, remember that even angels fall. You hear me? You’re not immune to slippin’ no matter how many good deeds you do to drown out the devil, or to fill the silence God leaves us with at times.” He bent forward, furrowing his brow to emphasize his words. “You are not immune to fallin’.”

Then he straightened. “But neither are you alone. You got your daddy, and it sounds like he’s a good man. For that I’m glad. But you also got Kathy. She’s a changed woman since you prodded her toward makin’ amends with her son. You got Patti and Richard and that Ivan boy, even if he is still tryin’ to figure out who in tarnation he is. They’re good folk, and you’ve given them a wake-up call on what’s important. And you got this ol’ fool standin’ in front of you. I may be old, Miss Willow, but I’m not blind. I can see you’re standin’ on shaky ground. So if you need a hand, or a shoulder, or someone to bake another one of those pies for, you just mosey on down here to my door.”

Willow was smiling by the time he finished his little unrehearsed speech. “Thank you, Joe.” That was all she said, and for now, he realized it was all she had to offer. He’d just have to be okay with that. He pulled out the stool across from her, sat down, and took a deep breath in. Why did she still smell like boysenberry pie and Mama? He was just about to ask her when she spoke first.

“So tell me something, Joe. Why haven’t you introduced your wife to the rest of the folks here? Word around the park is that you’re an eligible bachelor.”

He nodded. “I know. It’s the funniest thing, too. I mean, they’ve all seen my Vivien comin’ and goin’ for years. I guess people here just don’t want to be up in anyone’s business. Except for you.” He pointed a long finger at her. She pressed a hand to her chest and raised her eyebrows in mock surprise at his accusation, mouthing the question, “Me?” Then she pointed back at him.

“Well, I know you’re not asking for my opinion on this, but as you just pointed out, I’m not timid about getting up in your business. So here’s what I think. I think you should make it official. I think you need to honor Vivien as your wife while you have her; while she has you. You don’t know what tomorrow might bring, Joe. Don’t wait until it’s too late—” Willow’s voice cracked just a little, but she swallowed and went on, although a little quieter. “—to appreciate her to the fullest. Only the Lord knows how much time each of us has on this earth.”

“And how are you suggestin’ I do that?” he asked, politely ignoring the tremble in her voice. “Hang a sign out front? Throw a party?”

“Whatever it takes! Hang a sign. Throw a party. Shout it from the mountaintop!” Willow leapt to her feet and cupped her hands around her mouth, calling out in a loud voice, “Ladies and gentlemen—but especially you single ladies—this is the one, the only, the remarkable Vivien Harper-Sanderson. My wife!” Then she turned to look at him, hands on her hips, reminding him of Vivien herself. “Whatever it takes, Joe Sanderson.”

Instead of sitting back down, she crossed to the coatrack by the door and grabbed her scarf. As she wrapped it around her neck, she said, “Or you could just take a walk.”

“What? A walk?”

“Take a walk around the neighborhood, with your wife on your arm. Introduce her. People should know that she’s not just your gal-pal.” She waved a hand at the empty scone basket on the table. “By the way, that’s for your collection of TV Guides.” Then she thanked him for one of the best breakfasts she’d had in ages.

“You know, Joe. I’m used to people talking about me behind my back. I’ve heard the whispers my whole life. I don’t exactly know why; maybe I lack social graces or proper etiquette. Maybe it’s simply because I don’t mind.” She was standing at the front door, her hand on the doorknob. “But I’ve learned a thing or two in my own life, and one of the things I’ve learned, is that the best way to shut out the whispering is to live even louder. Stop letting them whisper about you and Vivien, Joe. Take a walk around the neighborhood. Live out loud.”

Joe stared at her for a few moments, then stood to see her out. “Wise words for one so young.” He held the door open for her. “I believe you’ve seen more than your fair share of trouble, haven’t you, child?”

Willow bowed her head and slipped past him, her silence all the confirmation he needed. He watched her as she made her way down the steps and out his gate, then just before she disappeared around the end of the trailer, he called out in a loud voice for all to hear, “My wife, Vivien, is goin’ to like you, Willow Goodhope. I look forward to introducin’ you to each other!”

He heard her laugh long after she was out of sight.

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The End of Part 3: March Whispers

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I hope you enjoyed meeting Joe Sanderson of Space #9 at the Coach House Trailer RETREAT, in Part 3: March Whispers.

Do come again in April to meet the Cat Lady in Part 4: April Shadows.

Mentoring… or Enabling?

As many of you know, Married… With Fiction is preparing to launch on April 1st, 2013. April Fool’s Day. Yes. What were we thinking?

One of the key focal points of Married… With Fiction is mentoring, the conscious act of reaching out to those around you, especially when you’ve already walked the road they’re traveling. (Click to Tweet!)

But what happens when mentoring becomes enabling? (Click to Tweet!) How do we prevent it from happening? Has it ever happened to you?

I recently had a terrible experience with this. Briefly, this is what happened. I was asked to take a writer under my wings, a friend who had a story to tell, but not the words to tell it. In the end, after a tumultuous process, I lost a cherished friendship with her, and I was cut off from the a circle of people to which we both belonged, because I made no defense for my behavior when she maligned my character to them.

I have probably said too much here, however, I have a point. Because of this experience, and my tendency to be a bit of a recluse by nature, I have to say that I’m rather gun shy about the idea of mentoring.

But what exactly IS mentoring? The Bible

Well, I have this BOOK that gives a little insight into mentoring. Let me share with you some of the things it says.

Psalm 145:4 One generation shall commend your works to another, and shall declare your mighty acts.

2 Timothy 2:2And what you have heard from me in the presence of many witnesses entrust to faithful men who will be able to teach others also.

1 Peter 5:1-5So I exhort the elders among you, as a fellow elder and a witness of the sufferings of Christ, as well as a partaker in the glory that is going to be revealed: shepherd the flock of God that is among you, exercising oversight, not under compulsion, but willingly, as God would have you; not for shameful gain, but eagerly; not domineering over those in your charge, but being examples to the flock. And when the chief Shepherd appears, you will receive the unfading crown of glory. Likewise, you who are younger, be subject to the elders. Clothe yourselves, all of you, with humility toward one another, for “God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.”

Acts 8:27-31And he rose and went. And there was an Ethiopian, a eunuch, a court official of Candace, queen of the Ethiopians, who was in charge of all her treasure. He had come to Jerusalem to worship and was returning, seated in his chariot, and he was reading the prophet Isaiah. And the Spirit said to Philip, “Go over and join this chariot.” So Philip ran to him and heard him reading Isaiah the prophet and asked, “Do you understand what you are reading?” And he said, “How can I, unless someone guides me?” And he invited Philip to come up and sit with him.

1 Thessalonians 2:8So, being affectionately desirous of you, we were ready to share with you not only the gospel of God but also our own selves, because you had become very dear to us.

Titus 2:3-5 Older women likewise are to be reverent in behavior, not slanderers or slaves to much wine. They are to teach what is good, and so train the young women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled, pure, working at home, kind, and submissive to their own husbands, that the word of God may not be reviled.

Mentoring is:

Mentoring

  • Commending – promoting one another by openly speaking highly of each other.
  • Entrusting – passing on important and pertinent information to those who can benefit from it.
  • Teaching – clarifying what works and doesn’t work to those who are still learning.
  • Shepherding – being willing to lead, to steer those who are floundering or might get lost without direction.
  • Willingly and eagerly exercising oversight – offering discernment when areas of weakness or strength are noted.
  • Being examples – living in a way that Shows, not Tells – sorry, writer humor.
  • In humility – never setting oneself above others, no matter what station in life, but always being gracious, putting others first.
  • Guiding – offering help and encouragement to others who might be struggling to find their way.
  • Sharing – not only the gospel, but of ourselves. Sharing our hearts – things we’ve learned along the journey.
  • Training – Being willing to be an example of what has and has not worked, so that others can see more clearly how they should go.

These are just a few of the actions that make up mentoring, according to Scripture. Not one of the above verses mentions anything about allowing yourself to be used, to be walked on, to be beat up, to be taken advantage of, or abused in any other way. Not one of them says mentoring requires setting aside God’s calling on your own life in order to hold someone up who isn’t desirous of growing and learning and becoming a better wife, child, partner, writer, person. Not one of those verses confuse mentoring with enabling.

Mentoring is helping others find their own way, on their own two feet. Enabling is keeping others from finding their own way by lying down under their feet. (Click to Tweet!) On Married… With Fiction, it is our goal to build a community who reaches out to each other. Mentoring, not enabling.

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Smashwords: Elderberry Croft

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